一对夫妻，牵着年幼的儿子，有说有笑地走在我面前。
我真心地为他们感到幸福，也默默为他们祝福。
类似这样的幸福，我似乎也有过，
只是那记忆怎么这么模糊，这么遥远？
可不可以不要勾起我对一个完整家庭的渴望。
纵然我从来不觉得那是我的渴望。
坚强、开朗是我的性格，还是我的伪装？
成熟是因为真的成熟，还是是因为我被逼着长大？
被逼着认识大人们丑陋的世界？
其实没有他，也没有什么大不了，
我仍然拥有真正的快乐。
我厌恶的，是这件事对妹妹的影响。
她，本来可以更好。
唉，争气一点啦！
This is life@
10:51 PM
♥Sunday, January 17, 2010
Its okay if a family is incomplete as long as it has warmth.
When it lacks of both, its gonna be a killer.
At least I thought my sister had died under its hands, with her own mindset that the family doesn't have it.
Every family has its problem, I think mine is real big.
You don't really know how to put it across. Its too long that you don't really know where to start or how to end. It just draws itself in a circle, never-ending, yet torturous and gets even deeper as it goes round and round.
The pain inflicted just got deeper each time the same cycle runs. I don't exactly know whether its me that is too happy-go-lucky that I feel nothing, or I already feel so numb that I feel nothing. Useless in a way. Helpless in another. There's nothing we could do, especially when nothing we had done is right and useful for her. Seriously have no idea whether its just us, or its just her. Except to pray that, this strayed one will be able to get back to the right runway one day.
Is that too much to ask for?
Doesn't she have any idea, the three people, in their three separate rooms, are worrying about the same person, same thing. Why can't she just change for those that love her, for good? What are we to her?
I just hope everyone, especially grandma will be fine, and live on with good health, despite worrying about her every single second.
Some people have to wait till they lose it, to feel regretful. Simply no point.
I know this is real mean, but I seriously feel like giving my parents two tight slaps for throwing this burden to my aunt and grandma, and they have to deal with the mess that they did not have to.
The only thing I can repay her with, is to secure my future, so that I can secure hers. But I'm nowhere there now. Somebody please guide me.
This is life@
2:01 AM
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Today is a total bad day, I just wanna sleep away today and embrace a better tmr! (provided that its better).
The only gd thing is perhaps a new tuition assignment that I could take up!(out of my CMI schedule^^)
Always feel like giving 1 month notice. Esply now where I really need to plan what should I do.
Plus... I'm getting tired of this.
不说什么，
并不代表你就可以理所当然的误会、谴责我。
2009年，12月。。。
两把好声音。
睽违了七年！终于发片了！
彭佳慧－无法割舍
当不会说谎的人还真可怜
你隐藏心思动摇的指尖
和不时出神发呆 回避的眼
你怎么忘了 我对你多了解
当两个人的关系只剩以前
我剪断我们之间那条线
想放你飞向蓝天 越离越远
但你却拼命飞往我 心里面
该割舍却又无法去割舍
原来是感情中最难的功课
我给自己时间 让记忆模糊了
今天的泪是明天 的歌
该割舍却又无法去割舍
是伤痛让成长的过程更深刻
在月下会想念 但不再等什么
离开很像幸福的 曲折
另外一位是睽违了八年的灭绝师太！
黄小琥－没那么简单
没那麽简单 就能找到 聊得来的伴
尤其是在 看过了那麽多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫
没那麽简单 就能去爱 别的全不看
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单 一久也习惯
不用担心谁 也不用被谁管
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话 随便听一听
自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上 关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里
相爱没有那麽容易 每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麽容易 才会特别让人著迷
什麽都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经
想念最伤心 但却最动心 的记忆
真诚、丰富的情感，
有实力的声音
扣人心弦。
This is life@
12:31 AM
♥Friday, January 15, 2010
当我每次相信你会变好，
你一定会辜负我对你的期望，
你真的想让看不起你的人都得逞，
而打击我对你，一次又一次的希望。
做自己答应过的事情，真的这么难吗？
做不到就不要答应！
不可以有那么一点点责任感吗！
我不知道还可以做什么。。。
也不想再做什么，
因为你都把别人对你的好
当成是理所当然的事！
I just hope you understand
"no one owes you a living"
I though this song sounds really blissful(:
刚刚听着听着就睡着了，可是这首歌好棒！
幸福的風 - 楊宗緯
This is life@
2:51 AM
♥Thursday, January 14, 2010
我被锁在矛盾里面。
相信与不相信之间，只有一线之差。
世界上的人真的是无奇不有！！！
his hair is a hat! haha so cool!
I think he's a genius! Watch from 3:00 onwards! I promise you wun have time to blink! omg!
And this is like LOL??? haha
There's so many "complaints" thats true!
One that really got into me! lol
You passed your A levels but still can't get to SMU?
and the NS thing will get consensus with most guys i supposed! Lol it just made my morning! haha
But anyhow, the whole choir is good! Definitely the keyboardist too! :D
We are the members of the nation, that need some stress relieving.
Haha all the best Singaporeans!!!
This is life@
2:10 AM
♥Sunday, January 10, 2010
可不可以坚强、有毅力一点？
可不可以有用一点？
不要迷糊、粗心，
不要说那么多的借口。
做好该做的事。
王镒玲，你很欠打。
This is life@
3:36 AM
♥Wednesday, January 06, 2010
Hmm... This is a little late but... I really like this photo lol!
MERRY X'MAS
AND
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE !!!(:
AND
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE !!!(:
I hope 2010 brings me back to school. Time flies. And I'm entering my 2nd decade on earth. I'll work hard to be more accomplished in what I wanna do and what I have to do. Hopefully it'll be a better year than 2009 for everyone (:
And and IT WAS MY FIRST TIME WORKING ON A NEW YEAR DAY! :D
Though its a public hols, I'm not paid like 14/hr, I'm feeling happy back in isetan.
With the staff, with the work, even with the customers who are all rather pleasant today! Everything just felt nice. Perhaps its just good to be back in an old place with all the familiar faces and routines, working tgt as a team, and having a real nice break time for a proper meal, and go anywhere your legs carry you after lunch/dinner. I felt free and satisfied.
Back to echo tmr, thankful for those who are making work much better. I'll strive harder and perserve. Hopefully the school do well, for its a part of my life. I'm seeing it like its a thing of my own, may nt be right, but it drives me to do things for the school. I hope things are as worthwhile as I thought it is.
This is life@
2:48 AM
♥Saturday, January 02, 2010