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I'm sick T_T

28/4
Work till 6pm! Then went to taka to have my fish soup(: But it doesn't taste as nice that night T_T After that went to visit jacinthe for awhile, n went back to tpy for tuition(: E boy is kinda well behaved(: Nt that mischievous but I'm sure he really dun like chinese! haha, so attention span is short. But he's kinda sweet too(: Halfway thru he suddenly asked if i had dinner alr coz he scared that i'll be hungry coz e tuition is gonna be till 9:30pm. Lol, n due to his short attention span, i stayed for an addition 1 hourXD So left at ard 10:30pm. Felt a little sick that night.

29/4
It was shit when i woke up in e morningXD I felt terrible! But i had to go to work! So i went n told her i wanna take half day off! May came to isetan at ard 11 plus lol! Then we chatted for awhile till we were asked to stopXD She went to walk ard till 1plus she came back(: After that when joyce came, I left. Worked till 2pm ytd. Then after that may n i waited for eileen(coz we were going to take our pay ytd^^), while my head continues to feel heavy.

Went up to prestat after meeting up with eileen, took our pay(: But part of e pay goes back to them, coz we bought chocolates! LOL! I can't stand e temptation of e liquor chocolates so i bought it! Plus some choxi bars! Haha, felt btr when i saw e chocolates, dunno why.

So currently there's no fair coming up for prestatXD Means i gotta find a job soon again!! We sat in e office n waited for shuk han! Haha as usual, that girl was late! We went zara first for eileen's attempt to exchange for another piece of clothe, but failedXD Lol, then we left for food republic. May craved for her fish soup lol! Taka after that n shuk han left to meet her bf. So three of us went to B2, look for jacinthe. Lol, n we walked ard taka(:

Then e depressing part came T_T For which i dun wish to remind myself of. So yea that's it.

Went to see doc first, wanted to take cab home coz i was asked to. But there is srsly no cab ard. So i got sianned by sitting there n i started to walk, with e intention to walk home! Haha yishan was talking to me on e phone(: Noe how nice that girl is, she kept asking me to wait for cab, she scared that i'll faint somewhere lol! Haha, she even wanted to come down(coz her house is near), but i told her there's quite a distance from her bus stop n where I was at. So asked her to chat with me instead haha. So yea we chatted all e way till i rched home! That girl is freaking nice(: Love(:

After that chrysan came over coz she gotta use internet! Haha, n i think she stood outside my house for quite sometimeXD PS abt that girl! Haha, until i asked my grandma to open e door for me coz i was still in e shower. I told my grandma, "AH MAH, KAI MEN!" (had to shout coz she was playing her songs damn loud), noe wat she did! She banged on door of e bathroom! She told i asked her to open that door! When i was asking her to open e door for chrysan! Haha my grandma is damn cute(:

So chrysan stayed till 11plus(: Had fun toking to her, seeing her new friends n blah blah blah! Lol, e thing is, girl dun be so stress! Haha

30/4
I've intention of not going to work today! So i asked joyce to help me ask if i can dun work ytd night! But e IC said she can't find ppl to replace me! So i woke up early in e morning, n went to work. N noe wat, she saw that i've got mc for today, n she asked me to go home coz she's afraid that she'll get into trouble! Like WTH! N apparently she found someone to replace me for today! So its like... might as well tell me i can dun go work today right, made me waste my 2dollar plus transport fee for nth(to n fro), so yea i'm home now. N there's tuition again today(:



This is life@
11:59 AM
♥Thursday, April 30, 2009





Full day of work today again! Coz dar cannot come T_T N today was pathetic! Like as gd as no ppl! I was telling e guy who was asked to stand in joyce's place, everything here, including me is like unnecessary expenditure for isetan! Haha, n for those friends who are interested in e job(that i msged u guys) n they've called u all, but if not sure where's e place can ask me yea(:

N btw as I was watching metamorphosis just now, i still feel really sad for wanrouT_T I mean i noe its not real but i can't help it but to feel that way. Hopefully this is not gonna happen in real life.

N i'm anticipating tmr(: Srsly! Haha, hopefully i will nt teach e wrong things man! I'm kinda afraid of my chinese nowT_T One thing for sure, its nt as gd as before! Sigh.

I'm kinda tired today, sort of fell aslp during work. Or rather, dozing off!



This is life@
12:26 AM
♥Tuesday, April 28, 2009





It was mad ytd!

Eve asked me to go club with her after work. Haha, was alright initially, then got high! But i knew wat i was doing! N i think i was so not myself. I think i gave may a big scare! Lol! Vodka + cranberry is much nicer than vodka + red bull(mr ong's drink the other time). Lol its kinda gd just to not rmb anything n dance away everything.

I know I will settle it(:

Looking forward to star awards tonight(: Then starting from tmr, gonna work ALL E WAY till 3rd May T_T



This is life@
1:45 PM
♥Sunday, April 26, 2009





二氧化碳
当日历一页页撕去
你仍旧在我脑海里
偶尔想起爱过的你
但是我并没有哭泣

这样是否就能证明
已经把你当成回忆
伤口是否不再致命
伤痕是否已无痕迹

看着那泛黄的日历
写着一周年的日期
想起去年那个夜里
没有星星但我有你

今年同一片夜空里
挂着数不清的星星
但身边早就没有你
我会把你藏在心底

曾经当你是我生命
把你当成我的氧气
以为没有你就不行
所以尽力屏住呼吸

但我竟然还会忘记
氧气一进到身体里
就会变成二氧化碳
然后回到那空气里

我想今后
不会再憋气
我会自然地呼吸

看着那泛黄的日历
写着一周年的日期
想起去年那个夜里
没有星星但我有你

今年同一片夜空里
挂着数不清的星星
但身边早就没有你
我会把你藏在心底

往后的日子
会一天天地过去
你将会是我
尘封的回忆

this is for 6/5/09.

N i'm sad now. Not because of this. stupid me. Why m i so easily psycho-ed? N why i get myself into such a deep shit.

Yiling is a dumbass! She sucks a big time.

FUCK!



This is life@
12:45 AM
♥Saturday, April 25, 2009





First day of work wasn't too bad(: So relaxing! LOL, feel like i'm somehow paid to relax. Haha bt i think e whole thing is fun(: But i was really hungry, at a pt of time it feels as if i'm gonna vomit out e acid in my stomach! Lol, gross! But i dint! Thank god! N joyce came punctually(: So i get to eat my lunch at 2pm! (:

After that tok to darling until i knocked off at 6pm(: Its so nice to SIT DOWN while working, and u get to chat with ur gd friend(: LOL! Srsly, my feet was perfectly fine when i stood up! Selling chocolates compared to this is like half the time but twice the pain! Lol, just that i gotta wake up early! But its okay(: I can use this chance to tune my super screwed body clock back(:

N a very very gd news today is that I've got a tuition job(: Its gonna start nxt tues(: Anticipating!!!

Came home n i watched 娃娃看世界! The kids are SO ADORABLE(: I swear! They're really funny(: N i watched e preview for nxt week! Its so funny! Lol!

quan yi feng: 母鸡的蛋叫什么？
boy:叫小鸭
quan yi feng: 那鸭子的蛋呢？
boy:叫小鸡

Lol doesn't seem as funny when written here! Watch nxt week's epidsode! haha!! Channel 8, 8:30pm, Thurs.

After that its 9pm for table of glory. Its e last fourth episodeXD Isn't it fast! Oh my! N joshua is so gd looking(:

Lol watching kang xi lai le now(: Today's episode got jolin tsai! Lol she really has a gd fashion sense!



This is life@
9:35 PM
♥Thursday, April 23, 2009





Today's so screwed.

Anyhow, it just doesn't feel gd when u know that u know how to do smth n u forgot how to go abt doing it right? sigh. forget it.

So I went back to tpy, saw gorgor n gwen again! Like so qiao keep seeing them these few days lol! N shan accompanied me to have lunch(: She's always there whenever i'm nt that happy(: Love! Then we went to KOI cafe to buy bubble tea! N e person heard wrongly, coz she wanted big pearls instead of e small ones, n e person tot she wanted e big cup>< So its like omg!!! I was so full also after helping her to finish some of itXD

Then after that she accompanied me to e control station n i went to orchard for e job briefing! Okay, n that guy who briefed joyce n i was so longwinded! N he talked as if we're idiots! He told me to press "tab" to go to e nxt column(for e application form), though i'm not a pro, at least i'm nt THAT NOOB that i dunno abt it right. That's one. Another one is, he told me to come in from the door, walk to e lift n press e down button! I mean i'm not a machine that he nid to give me such detailed instructions right! I mean its really too detailed isn't it?

Okay anyhow, TMR IS START OF NEW JOB! Its like i haven rested enough! Sigh, its okay, i shall work hard for e sake of money! I nid money! I'm broke! Super duper broke! N hopefully prestat pay comes soon too(:

Have to go read up a little now for tmr! N morning shift everyday coz darling giving tuition to her cousin in e morning. ROAR! That's like zzz!

N BTYCO got silver. But its okay(: A gd job done by everyone! I believe one day we'll get our gold(: JIAYOU JUNIORS N JUNIORS TO BE(:



This is life@
8:05 PM
♥Wednesday, April 22, 2009





Today met up with SHUXIN, KAYAN, YENLENG, WANTING N WINNIE(:

We watched 17 again(: zac efron is so cute(: N i think his acting improved alr! LOL, then after that we went to get free cone, sat ard e fountain n chatted lol! Then decided to go to arcade(: I miss bball machine! I dunno i spent how much on bball machine alr! Oh god, gotta stop! Then after that when we were deciding to play daytona or nt may arrived(: So i went to find her(tot she dunno where's e arcade, actually she's near alrXD) So i made her walked "yuan wang lu", so noob la me!

She joined us for DDR(: N after that i played bball machine with her again! Lol, left after we finished e 3rd round! I think shuxin they all are bored lol! So after that shuxin left with wt, ky left with winnie. Then yl joined mayy n i for free cone(: So i had two cones today, feel so sweet after e second one!

After that yl left to meet her pw mates! Mayy n I went to gelare(: Tues half price(: So she had her waffle! I really cmi alr! Then she accompanied to e food court to eat fruits lol! So i walked back to orchard, wanting to save my transport fare(: While she took train to farrer park! Then i walked home again from tpy! I'm like walking everyday! Zzz!

Okay i gotta go(: Promised baby(i mean mel!) that i'll go slp after 5mins! LOL

GOODNIGHT(:

Will upload photo if i got it!
N hope baby recover from her sore throat n blah blah blah soon! (:



This is life@
12:57 AM
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Today is nice(:

Woke up ard 1plus pm. Then went to meet joyce first. Coz she's at tpy! After that we walked to interchange to find jerm n ger! N to know that jerm wanna go library! LOL so we had to walk all e way to e library! N he finally returned e book! Wat a relief la! Srsly its so not worth it to pay e fine for a book zzz!

After that we walked back to my hse(: AA rched tpy shortly, then I went back tpy to bring her to my hse. But in the end we went ard tpy running errands! Coz my sis wan me to help her buy a mug, joyce wans her nuts(NTUC) n her watermelon(FORKS N SPOONS) Walked e most for her stuff lol that idiot! Initially i only wanna buy bubble tea LOL! So when we finally rched my hse, we were so tired.

Then slacked ard, toking. Lol, so nice(: Then we had dinner! Joyce ate her nuts(pls start eating something proper darling...), Jerm, AA and ger ate cup noodles! N I had dinner that my grandma cooked. It was cosy, sitting ard n eating tgt(: I like that feeling!

Emma n Timothy came over! Lol coz emma said she wanna come over to play piano for me. Emma n Timothy are my neighbour's kids(they are twin) So cute okay! Hehe. So they ran ard my hse, n they dun dare to go into my rm to say hi to jerm, ger n joyce. Lol. I really love kids(: They are just so adorable!

They went home ard 8plus pm, then chrysan came over. Initially wanna print her stuff, but my stupid printer no ink siaT_T so sorry girl! So she slacked at my rm n waited till her friend rched home. N she showed me a super depressing video.
http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

srsly ppl, watch till e end. U'll just realised how fortunate you are.

It just feels so strong that i managed to type all these out.

Fortunate
Have you ever experienced the feeling of hunger?
Have you ever experienced the feeling of homeless?
If you have not experienced what they had,
Stop complaining about your life.

We cry over a pathetic breakup
We cry over a little setback
They smile deep from their hearts
When they get to eat our leftover food

And do you realised
How insignificant your problems are
compared to theirs?

I wish that I can change the world
So that it will be a better place for them
I wish that they can all be sheltered
From being poor, sickness and pain.
And most importantly I pray
For them all to be well fed
Don't let them go hungry again.

This is the best wake up call
To the people who are living in complaints
And don't you ever dare to say,
"my food sucks today"

And I truly realised
How fortunate I am
Can we all
Lend a hand to them?

I wish that I can change the world
So that it will be a better place for them
I wish that they can all be sheltered
From being poor, sickness and pain.
And most importantly I pray
For them all to be well fed
Please don't let them go hungry again.



This is life@
1:47 AM
♥Tuesday, April 21, 2009





Today is quite a gd day(: Went down taka early to find eileen first! Coz she's starting sch tmr! N i wun get to see her coz i'm on evening shift today! N after she knocked off, we went disturbing mayy! Haha then i ate bk while she watched meXD Then we went walking ard(: Bought a very nice pair of comb(earrings)! Then ard 4:30 we bid our goodbyes! N hopefully everything will be gd for all poly friends starting sch tmr(: After that went back taka to find mayy(: LOL so i'm like in town for e whole of today! N i feel so burnt nowadays whenever i'm out in e sun XD N mayy is nice to accompany me till 7 plus(:

Last day of work n earliest day to go home for evening shift! I tot it'll be e latest, but turned out we packed up quite fast! N E HIGHLIGHT OF TODAY IS!! A guy bought ALL THE DARK BARS(INCLUDING E MINI N E BIG ONES,even from harriods) AND MINT BARS I HAD AT MY COUNTER, N YES U DINT HEAR ME WRONGLY IS ALL THE DARK BARS! ALL!!!! I was so shocked! Even jacinthe was so shocked n passed me e calculator when i was writing e slip! OMG! THXS TO HIM! That our sales get to 400 plus in all today(: I hope every customers will be happy(: After eating chocolates! LOL, chocolate makes ppl high n happy(: N i'm praying hard that office still has dark bars coz i wanna buy!!!

Lol, tmr going to meet joyce, jerm n ger! I hope AA coming too(: Hehe! So happy(: Initially meeting yishan also!! But i guess it has to be postponed to another day!

Tues gonna watch movie with sx, ky, wt, yl n winnie! Its like so long since i last saw them!! SO I M LOOKING FORWARD TO IT(: N taken looks nice! I wanna watch taken too!!!!! THEN AFTER THAT IS FREE CONE DAY FOR B&J(: Gonna get free cones with MAY!(: N i dunno if e girls wanna come along too! LOL but i got a feeling they will! Haha(:



This is life@
4:01 AM
♥Monday, April 20, 2009





How long have u not seen anything sensational, touching and inspirational? I assure u this vid shows it all! N it totally proves that no one should judge a book by its cover. I totally salute her! Not only for her courage to be on stage, but the self confident she has when she proudly stood in front of all e audiences that are laughing at her when she said her dream is to be trained a professional singer n started singing.

See how fast ppl changes? She totally dropped their jaws just by her first sentence! N i always believed that if u know u've got wat it takes, be confident in urself! Dun be discouraged because ppl judged u by ur appearance n then u're just doing urself a discredit by not daring to show wat u've got! Coz u'll nv know!

This is e hot topic now i guess, just look at e no. of viewers! Madness!

SHE IS SUSAN BOYLE(:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

(can't embed e vid here coz embedding is disabled) PLS GO N TAKE A LOOK PPL(:



This is life@
2:31 AM
♥Sunday, April 19, 2009





I was on morning shift on fri(: Sales is alright, just avg but can be btr(: But it was btr than wed evening><



While i was talking to may i suddenly saw two very familiar ppl! LOL coz i was meeting chrysan n shuxia for astons(: So they were there early n managed to find my counter! Lol, bid my goodbye to may n evelyn after getting my bag! N of coz not forgetting to eat e korean rice cake evelyn bought(: YUMMY^^ Shuxia n Chrysan got their durian pancake lol! N we started walking to astons from taka! It was quite alright, doesn't seem as far as it is! LOL


So GREAT THING(: No queue at astons(: Yay! LOL, had my grill fish with herb! N just nice saw gwen n gorgor when we were abt to go in! Haha n KNOW WAT(: They have BAKED POTATO ytd(: THIS IS ULTIMATE LOVE(: But a bit sad la, coz kinda small, but they gave a lot of butter lol! But anyhow(: I just love astons(: LOL

Then we went to walk ard ps(: I saw e bean bag that ger told me! LOL but i wasn't sure if it was just e lining or iszit alr with e beans inside alsoXD

After that we went for our bball machine(: LOL we are crazy la, played dunno how many rds okay! LOL! N its so cool(: I REALLY LOVE BBALL MACHINE(: So shiok! N though e price to pay is e aching limbs now! But its okay lol! We almost broke e 346 record of e machine! ALMOST! Haha 323 nt that bad also right! Haha





Today evening shift! Lol i woke up at 2plus pm as usual. Its e second time i went to look for emily! N she's on mc today! Sigh. This is ultimate regret srsly. I promise not to be psychoed so easily again nxt time!

BUT SALES TODAY IS GREAT(: No matter overall or my personal one(: Happy happy! N i gt to noe a super duper nice guy(: N he has a cool name!



This is life@
12:24 AM
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Ahh another damn nice song(: Its even btr when she sings it live!!



I TOLD YOU SO
Carrie Underwood and Randy Travis
Suppose I called you up tonight and told you that I loved you
And suppose I said "I wanna come back home".
And suppose I cried and said "I think I finally learned my lesson"
And I'm tired a-spendin' all my time alone.

If I told you that I realised you're all I ever wanted
And it's killin' me to be so far away.
Would you tell me that you loved me too and would we cry together?
Or would you simply laugh at me and say:

"I told you so, oh I told you so
I told you some day you come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so, but you had to go
Now I found somebody new
and you will never break my heart in two again".

If I got down on my knees and told you I was yours forever
Would you get down on yours too and take my hand?
Would we get that old time feelin',
would we laugh and talk for hours
The way we did when our love first began?

Would you tell me that you'd missed me too and that you'd been so lonely
And you waited for the day that I return.
And we'd live in love forever and that I'm your one and only
Or would you say the tables finally turned?

Would you say:
"I told you so, oh I told you so
I told you some day you come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so, but you have to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again".
"Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again".



This is life@
4:50 AM
♥Thursday, April 16, 2009





SALES SUCKS TODAY! alright, today is a bad bad day then T_T

Off tmr, hopefully it'll be gd for e girls. N fri morning oh my. This is getting scary! N junxiang's coming down tmr(: Haven seen e little baby for like weeks! N its fast, he's gonna be one month old soon(: Haha n i think i'm gonna ikea for dinner tmr with jerm, ger, joyce n aa(: Heh heh! N i miss yishan! LOL that's so random!

I'm Moving On-Rascal Flatts
I've dealt with my ghostsand
I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame,trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on

At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on



This is life@
3:48 AM
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Was lazy to blog ytd. Haha, anyway, slpt till like 2plus pm ytd, n went off to work ard 4plus! Met eileen on e train(: Coz we were on evening shift tgt ytd! E only shift with 2 ppl! But it shouldn't be on a monday evening right! Like its so so so quiet>< But overall, its still fun with her ard(: Then after work she went to far east to find her friend while i went home haha.

Today my grandma woke me up in e morning coz she wanted me to accompany her to e clinic. N while in my sleep, i was having a super super bad dream. Its like somehow connected to e monday's dream. I never had such a great fear within me before. Oh god, i know its an inevitable thing, but pls dun let it happen fast.

Anyhow, so i managed to wake up early, n accompanied my grandma to e doc. Then she's so cute, she wanna buy sandals for home wear. I think i should bring her out someday to walk ard. By 1pm, i was super shag in front of e com. N i fell aslp on e desk. Haha it hadn't happen for a long time(it usually happened when i was doing homework).

Went to work as usual at 4plus. Tmr another evening shift XD Hopefully there's more ppl tmr!!! N i was super lucky today, a miracle happened at e eleventh hour! N i'm super thankful to e customer who bought e 8dollar bar(:

Right now i still dun feel that tired as i tot i will be. But i wan to slp early! Haha, shall see(:



This is life@
11:53 PM
♥Tuesday, April 14, 2009





Was looking thru my phone just now! N i realised, i had a song composed on 21/2/09! I think it just came to me at that pt of time after some kinda unhappy stuff suddenly pop into my mind! So yea, just feel like putting it here. Coz its e first most complete song i've ever done, with e melody n lyrics. But i dunno how to put e melody into a real play thingy. Nvm that i shall find a chance nxt time when i learn how to! (:

事于愿违
曾经以为我找到了那个人
曾经以为我不再要寻找着
曾经以为我是你的永恒
原来才发现那都是骗人的

即使我们把过去说清楚了
把将来也计划得很美好的
可惜事于愿违啊
人生总有意外的
因为从那天起你不再是我的

因为从那一天起
你的心不在我这里
你的、你的心给了别人
你以为我不会懂吗？
以为我那么笨吗？
事实～
喔并非如此啊

这首歌唱给你的
歌唱完了以后
我们的感情也就告一段落
你有你的选择
我有我的旅程
不会再为你流一滴泪了

这首歌唱给你的
当歌完了以后
我不想再和你有任何的瓜葛
我相信我会好好地把你忘了
我也希望你能找到对的人
要做个好男人

This is a memory. I'll rmb e nice part, n let wind blow away e unhappy ones. I know, I'm abt to put down, completely.

Actually just realised, 6/5 is coming.
N coincidentally its ny's syf day this yr.
Good Luck NYCO(:



This is life@
2:11 AM
♥Monday, April 13, 2009





MORNING SHIFT(:

Managed to wake up, bt was still a little late zzz! Sales was alright, nt too bad also(: Chatted with evelyn! She's e promotor nxt to me selling vinegars n oils! Lol, coz always one person mending e counter, n coincidentally she always abt e same shift as me! So we always tok to each other! Haha, quite a nice girl, older than me by 9yrs old! Listened to a lot of her life stories, its kinda cool in a way she meet many different ppl n exp many different things in life. I would say she had alr exped beyond her age. I wish i had e chance too, to get out of singapore, n go ard e world, seeing, learning, playing, n of coz, eating different things and knowing different ppl(: LOL

After that eileen came for her shift(: N initially i was intending to accompany her for a while lol! N in the end i accompanied her till she knocked off then we went to walk walk(: LOL! Meanwhile i had a great deal of fun la(: I dun feel like i'm working alr, when i got ppl with me playing ard n blah blah blah! So i like(: Then evelyn's so nice, she treated me to e cheesy thingy n e korea rice cake! Nice(: Then after that eileen knocked off, she bought her food(i dunno wat's that call! haha) n i ate e korea sausauge! Oh god so nice! Then we went to walk ard, n finally went to sun moulin to buy bread! LOL! N eileen is so so nice to accompany me to take 143! Heh heh! TMR EVENING SHIFT TGT YAY(:

N i'll get to see may tmr too(: Heh heh

JAROD WON CSS3 WOOHOOOO! Though i nv really catch this season, he's SO CUTE(: N i think season 3's finalist is btr than season 2! In a way yes! Haha sch life is so nice, i miss sch srsly sigh.



This is life@
9:39 PM
♥Sunday, April 12, 2009





MET UP WITH JESSLY CHEW XIN YI TODAY!

We went to astons(: I had my grill fish with herb today(: BUT BUT BUT BUT!! There is NO BAKED POTATO TODAY T_T Sigh this is so sad!

N today i saw edwin! When i was going into e washroom on a particular lvl with jess, n he was walking out! That's so very, purely, completely a coincidence! Lol!

Then after that went with jess to taka! It was raining like shit initially! Then was stuck in grand cathay! N when i finally decided to take cab down to taka, e rain stopped when we stepped outside, i mean much smaller! So we took a train instead! Save money! But i spent a lot today! T_T

After that went to prestat counter! Saw may there! Dint realised eileen was there!! LOL until i finally saw her! I think i'm so blind! Stayed there for kinda long, i like it there, when i'm with the girls, they're nice ppl to tok to, to make fun of n blah blah blah! Haha! Then intro-ed products to jess! Haha. Then went to best denki! Lol, jess actually wanna go art friend! Then may met us there(: N i bought my mouse(: N i think my new mouse is so cool! Hehe, e everchanging light is so beautiful n cool(: But i'm still like using my mouse pad LOL, i think its a habit alr! Maybe i'll only use e mouse when i play games! hahaha so dumb! But still i'm happy! Coz i finally bought a mouse(:

N we went to buy royce chocolates today!! Lol, royce chocs aren't that bad after all!! Srsly(: Hanrong joined us after that! Haha, then may n i had to finish our share so that jess can bring hers home! Lol I'm so in love with chocs! HOW HOW HOW! Fattening><

Jess went home after that n e three of us went for dinner! Had my fish soup again! Did i say b4, taka's fish soup is so freaking nice!!!!!!! Then after that we went cineleisure, played with e bball machine! I miss bball! Anyhow, then we went to walk ard! N finally i decided to pay chrysan a visit at bbq chicken when i realised when it is! Lol so i had to spend money again! T_T But it was nice la! Oh man, i shall nt spend on anything for at least till thurs!!! So that i have money for friday! N after that camwhored with may! Lol hr took a few until he left when his dad was here! So yea we continued camwhoring! Haha then i waited for chrysan to knock off so that we can go home tgt! N dearest may accompanied me till then! Haha, chrysan u haven say thank u lor! TSK! :P

MORNING SHIFT TMR OMG T_T I wanna slp!



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12:06 AM
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TODAY IS GD(: coz SALES IS GOOD(:

Finally like hit 500(: Luckily! It was e last 10 mins! OMG! SO LUCKY! I was still short of 14 dollars at 9:49. Then suddenly many ppl start buying chocs, n thus got much more than 14! LOL!

N I just got to know that e pay today is 7.50/hr! After this job gonna work with joyce at isetan scotts! Haha, then i think i'll really go find tuition job alr(: But i think my brain's like so dumb right now! My mental sum sucks! I'm so sad! I think my maths cmi alr! Means everything else gone case too!

I must "exercise" my brain too seriously!! Now all in my head is antioxidant, dark, dark mint, milk n milk orange chocolate! Plus e new product cocoa powder! N e banana choco milkshake! OMG ><

N i wanna go jogging today when i'm back home(11plus pm), then my grandma dun allow T_T So sad.

But anyhow, tmr gonna meet jess(LIKE AFTER A MILLION YRS ><) Then may n gang! N then sun gonna work all e way till wed! Haha, feeling kinda slack here after not working ytd! N tmr nt working again! Lol!



This is life@
1:30 AM
♥Saturday, April 11, 2009





I've heard this song during an award ceremony last yr i think! N i always wanna find it but i keep forgetting! I suddenly remember it today! Haha its a canto song! Meaningful!

喜帖街-谢安琪
忘掉种过的花　重新的出发　放弃理想吧
别再看 尘封的喜帖　你正在要搬家

筑得起　人应该接受　都有日倒下
其实没有一种安稳快乐　永远也不差
就似这一区　曾经称得上美满甲天下
但霎眼　全街的单位　快要住满乌鸦
好景不会每日常在　天梯不可只往上爬
爱的人没有一生一世吗　大概不需要害怕

忘掉爱过的他 当初的喜帖金箔印着那位他
裱起婚纱照那道墙 及一切美丽旧年华
明日同步拆下

忘掉有过的家 小餐枱沙发雪柜及两份红
茶温馨的光境不过借出　到期拿回吗
等不到下一代 是吗

忘掉砌过的沙　回忆的堡垒　刹那已倒下面
对这浮起的荒土　你注定学会潇洒
阶砖不会拒绝磨蚀　窗花不可幽禁落霞
有感情就会一生一世吗　又再婉惜有用吗

忘掉爱过的他　当初的喜帖金箔印着那位他
裱起婚纱照那道墙　及一切美丽旧年华明日
同步拆下

忘掉有过的家　小餐枱沙发雪柜及两份红茶
温馨的光境不过借出　到期拿回吗终须会时辰到　别怕
请放下手里那锁匙　好吗

oh great, my blog song is gonna change again! lol i think its e first canto song on this blog!



This is life@
2:56 PM
♥Friday, April 10, 2009





Off today(: So i happily slpt till 2pm! N after that went out with joyce, jerm and aa(with eddie) to watch confessions of a shopaholic! Okay, e very pinkish starting and several parts was indeed bimbo! >< But all in all it was really nice n funny ((: Ger n joyce is now crazy abt that male lead! Haha, n yes i agree with e part whereby he look nicer when he smile! lol!

Anyhow, i did smth really stupid just now! I was taking out my contact lens(for e left eye), then i was like pinching n wondering why my eyes feel a little irritated n why i can't feel e lens! Then i covered my right eyes, to find that my vision is blur! Means my left lens is not in my eye! GOD! Then i frantically looked all over n find nth! N I SAW IT ON MY FINGERS! Okay isn't it really really dumb! N it means just now as i was pinching i was actually pinching my eyeball! OMG!!!!! IT WAS OMG SCARY>< I may just go blind if i were to scratch my cornea! N my left eyes still feel kinda uncomfortable now! OH GOD! Pray hard that its okay!! T_T



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12:13 AM
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I had a long day ytd!

Was on morning shift ytd morning so i woke up at like 8am when shan called me, n went back to slp? hahaha, dearest yishan know my pattern so well that she called me again to wake me up for e sec time! Lol, so i managed to be on time. Thanks ah bestie!

I initially tot i'll be so dead on morning shift, but i guess coz its alr wed, so there's more crowd. Or iszit that i'm lucky again! Hmm anyhow hopefully this luck continues! Oh n i learn how to make banana choco milkshake! Cool(:

After work, i bought a pair of slippers immediately, coz i knew if i were to stay in my heels(nt that its high) any longer, i may not be able to walk in the future. Its very painful! Then i went to amk to meet mel, dine n mo! Haha, n there got no "tze char" stall! XD So we tried calling several ppl, but none noe! Then we walked to somewhere near jubilee, n saw astons!!!(: SO HAPPY(: So i had my baked potato! Haha i dint noe there's astons in amk! Then we went to mel's place at hougang! Coz all e tze char stalls only opened after 4plus pm! Lol, so saw cookie(: Cookie is gd looking when his fur grows longer, lol, but yes i agree with dine he's skinny! Haha n he's excited to take a walk outside with mel's mum! Haha i wan a puppy omg T_T

Then we hanged ard at mel's place awhile, helping her mum with some wrapping. Lol then we went to eat! Yay, n it was nice!! But so sad i can't have prawns T_T Went back to mel's place after that, n played with her iphone! TAP TAP REVOLUTION! LOL! It was super duper entertaining u noe(: Make me feel like buying one lol! Pac man was cute too!! (:Then we went to e park to take photos(: With mel's polaroid! So cool lehs polaroid! I LIKE(:





Then i went to tanglin mall to meet jerm n ger! Goodness, it was such a super long walk from e mrt station to tanglin mall! I wasn't hungry intitally! But when i reached e mall, i was! Haha, but e two of them bought some cake n brownie(: So nice so nice(: Then we sat there for kinda long, n camwhored! LOL! After we finally decided to leave, we walked back to town via jerm's shortcut! Haha, we passed by cuscaden residences on our way! It was so nice! Jerm can't helped it but stood there for kinda long to take photos! Haha! So now ger n i are waiting for him to send us photos!!! Lol, when i got it then i update again!!
Gonna meet joyce n jerm for confessions of a shopaholic later on(: I M SO HAPPY(: Coz i haven been into e theatres for like god-knows-how-long!
Oh, n i'm off from work today(:



This is life@
2:16 PM
♥Thursday, April 09, 2009





A very very meaningful song(:

Miley Cyrus-The Climb
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,

Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

but I,
I Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna want to make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going

And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb

Keep the faith
Keep your faith



This is life@
1:34 AM
♥Wednesday, April 08, 2009





Sec day of work. Evening shift, at first was like shit! Thanks to e three customers who bought from me that my sales figure is not zero! Esp the rich indonesian lady(: Lol, coz she bought 3 of e most ex items! Lol

Anyway, dearest yishan came over to visit me at work today(: That girl was so nice to wait for me till ard 9:55pm when i finally knocked off, n we had dinner tgt, lol beside takashimaya! Rched braddell at ard 1035pm, we're kinda fast i think! Lol, then after that i walked home from braddell(:

不知从何时开始，我喜欢上独自走在这条路上，尤其在夜晚。我可以踏着自己的步伐、听着自己喜欢的音乐， 在月光下漫步回家。马路上少之又少的交通，在路灯的照耀下，显得特别宁静。它没有了白天的繁忙，让我有一种格外平静的感觉。瞬间, 觉得我的人生似乎没有了烦恼。

我，喜欢这样的感觉。

one step at a time(:

Its morning shift for me tmr! Oh god, so dead! XD But after that gonna meet mel n mo to eat "tze char" lol! I'm feeling happy, meeting all e ppl i wanna meet for these few days(: N i can't wait for sat too, topone(: Hopefully there's no work for AA! Haha(: Goodnight ppl(:



This is life@
12:21 AM
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WORK STARTS OFFICIALLY TODAY(:

Kinda bored coz i'm alone like most of e time>< But may walked ard to shop n come back once in a while to tok to me until she finally decided to go home! LOL! N awhile later shukhan came down, we chatted all e way till wirda was here with jasmine! Lol, then it became more noisy n happening(: Lol much nicer than when i'm alone! Srsly, being alone there is so bored i almost fell aslp la! Then eileen came, i brief her for e job thingy, n then went to meet sarah darling(: Though i was a bit late! sorry darling haha!

Yea so at night, i had dinner with rahrah(: We tok nonstop la srsly! Then after that we went pool(: Love! I miss sec sch days, where rahrah n mimi is infront, jerm is beside, ger n joyce is behind. Though aa n e rest is at e back, we're still tgt during recess time, most of e time 10 of us will be on one table. Its e most happy period of my life. There's laughter everyday, new ppl n things as our topic during e short 1/2 hr break. Though short, it was always fun n entertaining(: Class was fun even though got some stupid ppl. I would give anything for those gd old days, though i noe its impossible.

I miss...

-mimi's loudness n stupid actions, esp when she's with al! but this stupid girl can be quite sweet at times, n she's getting sweeter lol

-sarah's cute expressions. always so sweet(: and always complementing mimi in those stupid things also lol! n how they always bully hh, n suan ppl tgt lol, invincible i tell u ( i still rmb how we bluff hh abt e sch's being burnt down on certain april's fool day!)

-jerm's sketchbook! every here n then will see his artistic piece haha. N he can be really funny at unexpected times too lol!

-gerlynn always being so blur n asking spastic questions, she always dunno her way back then(dun think got improve much now also)

-joyce's madness with all her imaginary bfs LOL. n everytime got new eyecandies that look like shit :P so we'll have a gd laugh at her, lol but we're harmless n she noes that(:

-aa's someone who always nid protection! lol, like she nid someone to guide her n tell her wats up next. she gets frustrated easily at times too lol! But all in all, she's a gd person to chat to! N its so nice always, to hear her sing in every competition. N of coz, sing with her(:

-al is crazy la! esp when she's with mimi! they are super gd jokers that nv failed to make all of us laugh like mad

-hr, lol, dint tok to him much in sec sch actually. but its btr now alr. all thanks to cny cookies lol!

-kitty! lol she is cool n dao! esp when she do maths, but she's gd(: She will help eventually if we asked her! But i super duper long nv see her alr!


miss walking ard e sch with them all(homerm system yea), all of us carrying one whole load of books! esp on thurs, 2nd n 4th floor every alternate period, that's madness srsly. Its so amazing we survived! haha. Miss recess time, miss canteen food, miss putting n taking out books from e lockers before n after lessons, miss all e times we had tgt.


Of coz, my very exciting n rich secondary sch life is filled with co, council n all e ppl there, other than my class. There's many ppl, those days, that made a difference to my life. I srsly wan to go back to sec sch days!


I just hope, everyone will still stay in contact n at least have catch up sessions whenever we can(:
Its after everything, that i learnt to cherish whoever ard that is impt to me. N i noe who they are.












This is life@
12:18 AM
♥Tuesday, April 07, 2009





I have finally finished BOF(: Yea finished watching it in the afternoon! OH GOD, KIMBUM IS EVEN CUTER N MORE GDLOOKING after e 4 yrs later part(: I think i'm fast lol! For e last 10episodes. Anyhow, work is gonna start tmr! Kinda sian, but i look forward, look forward to meeting different ppl, learning more things. N facing e chocolates make me feel happy, nt that i'm unhappy la but i just feel happy with e chocolates(: Lol do i sound silly?? But srsly, e smell and taste of chocs is heavenly i think.

I nid to do some meaningful things! N i think i shouldn't be lazy, n should go do some exercise soon(: Staying healthy is everything i think. I mean being healthy means u can do anything u wan to.

Lol, i'm kinda loss for words now, a bit stoning. Watching the star arena 4(: lol byebye!



This is life@
9:32 PM
♥Sunday, April 05, 2009





Went back btyco today! It was nice, and in a way familiar. Just like wat i had mentioned ytd, 景物依旧，人事亦非。So yes, everything was e same, but nt the ppl and the ongoing things. It just seemed yesterday when I was in bty, look now, i had alr completed As n on my way to another phase of my life. N everything was different alr esp friendship or all sorts of relationship that used to be so close. All i can say is time is such a cruel thing, it weakens all bond that was once close but we did not held on. Or maybe we only have ourselves to blame for not holding on. Sometimes, its just hard to do that. So, u're nt as close as before, 无奈 and 遗憾 is e only thing left lingering. Furthermore, what else can u do? Some things cannot be regained once u've lost it. This is really the last thing i wanna see, but i guess, it was all too deep in us, that after so long, we still can't talk again like nth had happened. Isn't it so? Maybe deep in, we still care abt wat's going on in each other's lives. But then wat else can we do? When we had somehow decided to not interfere in each other's lives. Life is just full of contradiction. For me, its really really sad, to lose a friend really close. But it happened, and i can't change it. How i wish i can.




We had some regrets in life
But we can't turn back the time
And so we moved on
but even so we remember how life was back then
Contented and thankful that it once happened.



Relying on memories, but how trueful it is.
Everything changes, and so does e memories still hold?
Does what i know abt u still hold?
As long as i'm not there for a fraction of ur life, it may just mean that things will nv gonna be the same. Coz the things i had missed out, will nv get replayed.



How much faith can i have in a new one, when the faith was broken by another one. Even as optimistic as i am, telling myself its not gonna be the same. Can i believe that its a mutual feeling? Lost and confused. N i noe, only i can help myself to sort this out.



N all e words above, are all my random thoughts, referring to different matters, even i find it confusing. I've got to untangle the tangled.

N btw, i took photos with lay today(: Happy!

She srsly plays a big part in my sec sch life.

This is e girl, that i truly owe an apology to. This is e girl, that i should have held close to our friendship, but i dint coz of another. I did nt do my part as a friend. I failed terribly. I M BAD! ROAR! Sorry lay. This is late, and a regret for life. I'm sorry.



This is life@
11:04 PM
♥Friday, April 03, 2009





Dun say that i'm slow lol! I just finished watching BOF's episode 14, like FINALLY T_T while some of my friends had alr finished e show, lol coz e last episode is uploaded today i think! N i HOPE i can finish watching b4 i start work(: LOL! if i can(: Hahaha n i can't help taking some screenshots while watching. Venice is so beautiful, n i bet their air their must be really fresh, can see from their very nice blue sky also omg T_T envy! I srsly wanna go venice, nt coz of e show, since long time ago haha!

Lol jxz is really sweet, caring, thoughtful n etc. Plus all e gd things u can or cannot think of, he had done it for e girl he like(: How nice if there's really such a guy on earth(: Lol, but anyway i still LOVE KIMBUM(: With his CHARMING SMILE N DIMPLE(: OHMYGOD!!! Wat a killer combination! LOL! I dunno if i can finish watching by sun, dun like to rush lol! But who knows, i'll just get e momentum((:
Haha i sound so hyper n excited n all right, but i'm actually half dead now! Lol goodnight everyone(: BTYCO tmr(: HERE I COME(: YAY!



This is life@
12:51 AM
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My eyelids are heavy now! Lol isn't it weird for it to be so at this hr? Lol, its coz i woke up early in e morning at ard 10am(supposed to be earlier) for e job briefing, n i slpt at 5 plus am last night! T_T but i must force myself to stay awake now, coz it may be a gd chance to tune my body clock back! Lol for at least one day(: hahaha one day also not bad right(:

Oh n i should add on, went to eat bk after briefing with may, eileen n shukhan! But sh nv eat n she left to meet her bf. Lol so e three of us, went ard town to shop lol, though we dint buy anything, still its nice to walk n talk n crap like that (: Gd luck for sales, work is starting soon lol! N oh ya, saw jolene today! Super long dint see her alr!!

Anyway, going back btyco tmr!! YAY(: Though 景物依旧，人事亦非, i still m looking forward going back to e place once so familiar, n filled with so much memories. N btw hope lay did well for her ntu's interview today, n hope she'll do well also for her smu's interview tmr! LOL(: jiayou girl! I'm so slpy but i cannot slp!! Urghhh!!

N i'm relieved after seeing e simple msg(: N realised that ling is nth but a silly girl lol! ><



This is life@
6:42 PM
♥Thursday, April 02, 2009





Its e debut of table of glory today(: Like finally after such a long wait! Lol, but in e end i missed e first half of e show coz i went to visit my little baby cousin(: He has a name alr(: LOL n i just got to know today, its JUNXIANG nt junyang>< So ps to those whom i told his name was junyangXD
Anyway back to e show(: E shooting was done in NYJC also! Just think that its kinda cool that whenever e ny scences appear, its somewhere familiar to me lol! N it was when i watch e trailer then i realised it was ny! Haha I wonder when they shoot this lol! Dec hols i guess!


Seems like an interesting show(: Lol but i think i will miss some episodes here n there coz i've many evening shifts when work starts><



This is life@
10:04 PM
♥Wednesday, April 01, 2009