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OMG BLOGGER IS STILL NT OKAY ): Means cannot upload photos here ):

Bt anyway, Sunday was a busyx2 bt FUN^infinity DAY:D

It was Sharon MM's birthday:D Wheee! So the 6 of us met at tpy:D Destination was ECP:D The rest of us cycled while joey, MISS AMERICAN(LOL) bladed! I asked her to teach me bt she dun wan luhXD Haha we cycled all e way to bedok jetty(: I miss the place. Felt the breeze, watched ppl fished + CAMWHORED^^ Heh n thanks to kyran, we managed to take a nice grp photo there:D After that cabbed back to woodlands, mm's hse whereby her mum prepared food alr:D We cut e cake first! Haha then started eating! YUMMY! Caught a little of e soccer match with Liverpool VS Singapore! Well we know the outcome... Hmm haha n we camwhored there too:D Haha love those girls:D N hopefully e birthday girl is happyyy:DDD

After that rushed over to yishun for jiejie's 21st bd party at aunt's condo! Hmmm went to aunt's hse to change first! Saw jiejie n friends! haha quite a lot of ppl went:D Grandma n aunt they all e best! They went to sing in the other room! I was there for quite sometime too lol! N I got to know from junxiang that jiankai(jie's bf) was actually his friend! Okay tell me how small e world is! Lol very! She's like a princess:D Haha glad to see her having fun n all:DDD

Today went out with joyce, ger, jerm n aa! Okay it felt long actually since our last meetup! Bt ger's right too! That we've actually meet up more often than we just graduated! Had our dinner at MOS:D CAMWHORED ALL E WAY! Haha i think its just me! Bt well I think all outings deserve every moment captured:D Esply with ppl u cherished right:D Hehe so we caught up a little n camwhored a lot! Hmm should be the other way rd? Haha well we know wat's happening n wat's gonna happen to everyone actually! Lol so its okay! :D

BUSY 3 WEEKS AHEAD! Esply weekends! Bt for e sake of earnings + allowance! NO CHOICE! ):

Another very very meaningful song I heard today! Its really really very meaningful that I felt so touched when I heard it!

你们的爱-周笔畅

过去总要离开 无论多少感慨 明天总会来
生命没有彩排 我已不是小孩 相信依赖
眼泪和心碎也不能 让我的心里 失去期待
才看到那未来
那些人潮人海 如此迫不及待 散去又回来
没有某个角落 可以置身世外 逃开现在
如果我放弃该怎样去面对那些真挚的爱
谁拥有那未来

爱我的人 相信我
我一直在努力改变所有失败
为你们而存在
爱我的人感谢你 你们的爱
就算人生不是精彩 我也要勇敢的姿态

就像夜裏的光 就像皮鞭的响 指引著羔羊
伤口需要滚烫 生命需要成长 痛要品尝
命运去碰撞才会懂坚持 是不是对的方向
错过的不要想
就像干花的香 就像杯底的糖 沉淀了思想
每个人不一样 也许你的幸福 地址不详
要明白被爱并不是 一种奖赏 而是种力量
要用它去发光

爱我的人 相信我
我一直在努力改变所有失败
为你们而存在
爱我的人感谢你 你们的爱
就算人生不是精彩我也要勇敢的姿态

多少次紧握著明天徘徊
让昨天无法释怀
就算我注定失败
还有你暖的胸怀

爱我的人相信我
我一直在 努力 改变所有失败
为你们而存在
爱我的人感谢你你们的爱
就像在寒冷的雪天 等待著 一朵花盛开

Felt so applicable to myself n things happening ard when I read the lyrics! Actually this yr was a yr of happenings. So many things going on at the same time. Very bad things n very good things. N i think they're kinda link! Every word in the song is like what I'm feeling and what I felt that many ought to know! I super love this set of lyrics I hope everyone can understand what it means omg! I feel like doing a translation alr! I hope I can write smth like that too! Awesome!

The worst thing this yr is nt being able to get to local uni esply when ppl hear the grades you've gt n HUR ur grades cannot go in? Okay nt that its very gd like AAAAAAAAAA.... just average average! But even myself tot I'll be able to go into somewhere in the first place, esply with ppl ard saying that aiya u okay de blah blah blah, even Mr Ong says so. This is call 人算不如天算! Well if this is meant to be let it be, coz I've let it go n see things in a different light now! This is the very good thing that happened to me. Okay now I truly understand that what is bad may nt be the bad. If without this I wun have the time n courage to pursue wat I want(N of coz, being able to do so I must thank jess too^^)

But no matter wat, with or without this, I think its time to grow up. Face the fact and let it be the past n move on! Just like the first line. "No matter wat tmr will come. Life has no rehearsal, I'm no longer a kid and need to be independent" Another thing that I've think everyone ought to feel is the third n fourth line. "I wun allow setbacks to cause me to lose hope, so that I can see a future" Another reality is in the fifth line. "There's no place on earth for me to hide from reality and act like nth's going on" Well everyone ought to learn how to face problems instead of avoiding:D The nxt line says "how am I going to face my loved ones if I decided to give up now, who's gonna hold the future?" Yup isn't it very true that sometimes you feel things that you're ashamed of when the ppl who love you doesn't think that way. Like for me, initially I also felt that I'm such a letdown for not being able to go into uni. Grandma n aunt somehow know wat I'm feeling when i kept getting rejection letters, they kept telling me its nt the end. There are many successful cases even in the family. For which i really appreciate very much. So now i realised, if I keep feeling that way, it will then be the real letdown, nt only to them, bt to myself also.

就像夜裏的光 就像皮鞭的响 指引著羔羊
伤口需要滚烫 生命需要成长 痛要品尝
命运去碰撞才会懂, 坚持是不是对的方向
错过的不要想

N i super love this verse too! It says "Its just like the light in the dark, the loud sound of whipping that's guiding the goats. Wounds need to be felt, life needs to grow and we need to taste the pain. Our lives need not be that smooth so that we'll know if wat we've persevering is right. What we've missed out, should nt be on our minds anymore."

N thanks to all the ppl who I love and love me. Who supported me throughout this, listened to me and gave me advices, before applying, during applying and after applying. Actually nt only this period, all these yrs I have gd and nice ppl ard me who care no matter if we talked once in a blue moon or always been in contact. So thank you all really! Reality made me grow up, and also you ppl made me feel warmth, concern and love. I know I'll always have some of you to fall back on during hard times and setbacks. Its because of this that failure seems insignificant. It just doesn't matter anymore. Cause I know I'll stand up again, even harder to defeat everytime I stood up.

N to sx, sqjiejie, n many more out there who's going thru this and feeling bad abt it. I srsly hope you guys will find your self esteem back again and after you've found ur way out, let this present setback be an experience and nt a setback anymore. Jiayou everyone:D



This is life@
4:58 AM
♥Tuesday, July 28, 2009