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I was playing e piano happily when sookhan called.
sh: where are you?"
me: home(thinking to myself why's she so random to call n ask where i m, meanwhile listening to the sounds of the mixture of instruments at the background)
sh: hur? still at home?
me: OH YA SHIT! I forgot all abt it!!!!!!

hung up e phone n rushed to bath after that. Alright, cause i was supposed to go down to nyco n then set off with them to SCH for the rehearsal for SYF.

How can someone be as blur as me right? Took cab down to SCH. It has been kinda long since i last took a cab! When i arrived, they haven got in yet. Luckily. Helped them to carry yangqing to e stage. I think I do miss those times back then, busy with practices and blah blah blah. And finally, getting all rdy for SYF. Though it was stressful and all, it was all worth it.

It wasn't that easy, getting new scores, starting to search for the correct notes, correct emotions, correct way of playing and most imptly, coordinating with everyone playing different parts and instruments to piece up the music. Its even harder, definitely, than doing a jigsaw puzzle. It has no shape, no colour to tally with. Coordination and feel do it all.

I like playing those beautiful pieces, whereby you feel yourself in it. I feel touched when we played the soothing part, excited when it comes to the fast beat, esply so when climax is rched, and the pt when u just end the song and then stay still for a few more seconds while listening to the echo of wat is left of the song. Everything just feel great, not a bit less. Enjoying yourself in everything you do, is definitely all it means. And though there are many politics in CO, strong bonds are forged too. I never regretted joining co. No matter in secondary sch or jc. I had my space, my emotions, holding the sticks, hitting every string with life. The resonance that came after that is simply wonderful. It feels like I was myself when i play. I wished I had the determination to continue. Now I have to search again, something that can make me feel like I'm myself. That I'm of some use with my own ability.

Anyway went down to isetan today for registration(:

Saw a lot of familiar faces(: But qing n xiaoshi were late, like for an hr! So i dint get to really tok to dearest jiejieT_T After registering, ate subway with sx, ky, wt and yl. Did some catching up(: N went back tpy after that, shuxin accompanied me to get my solutions(: Thanks girl!

These few days my eyes don't feel like mine. I know its weird to say this. But i really think there's something wrong with it. I'm scared, totally freaked out. When the vision suddenly became blur. I dunno whether its with the contact lens or that i'm not having enough sleep. I looked into the mirror, sometimes its red, sometimes it looks normal. Seeing eyes that doesn't look like mine is not a very gd feeling. Okay, hopefully this is gonna be over soon, pls. Go away.

I think i need fresh and clean air, maybe i should really clean up my rm. Dun wanna get sick again! And though i had finished medicine, i dun think i'm anyway btr. Maybe a little.



This is life@
2:26 AM
♥Tuesday, May 05, 2009