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Went topone with may, hr and chongwei today! (: So we spent our 7 hrs in there, singing, n starving! Haha but it was all in all, very nice(: Though our voice all CMI alr, still I enjoyed myself(: Coz singing simply cheer my day up(: After tthat we went astons for dinner(: Ate steak! Wheee!! It was practically heaven! Just that e queue-ing up part was seriously hell! The queue is so long that we could no longer withstand the hunger and went to buy kayun toast! Lol! But anyhow! ASTONS DAMN NICE(: Baked potato! Plus my new love STEAK(: Pearlyn joined us for dinner though she dint eat much! After dinner went to arcade, played my love with may(: N after that we bishi-bashi-ed too(: Haha

Yup so overall, today was enjoyable and nice(: But a pity was Lennon dint manged to join us in time. N i finally gave may her bd present! (: After that may n i walked back to orchard and went home separately! Lol so home sweet home(:

Waiting for my hair to dry so that I can get my beauty slp, n tmr we're going to aunt's hse to visit Junxiang! He is getting cuter n cuter! For goodness sake! So cute(: Will post here when i get his photos too(: Aunt asked me to make a montage for him! Haha, n srsly, he noes how to pose to the camera alr! Must be coz of his mum! Haha can't wait to see e little boy tmr! Hehehe(:



This is life@
12:46 AM
Sunday, May 31, 2009





I was unhappy the whole day today! Coz apparently i'm still upset abt the house thingy that i dun feel like saying into details here. No use if i were to say everything too! Can't change her mind n the fact. N wat's worst is that NTU is nice enough to hit me when i'm down, by giving me a letter that upset me even further! To think i travelled down for three interviews, wasted my money, time and all! F. Yup life is so f. up now! Not a bit less!

Though not all the bad happened today. I got another tuition job. The agent woke me up from my slp at 10plus am! N ding offered us another job also! So that most likely is the best thing today! N another thing is watching 康熙来了! I was feeling much happier, but now the sulken mood come back again. But back to the show, xiao S is super hilarious! Very funny!

Well, my life is nt gonna stop here without uni! I'm sure of that, but i'm not very sure wat's gonna be my nxt move. Whatever it is, I need some time to sort out my very inorganised thoughts!



This is life@
11:14 PM
Thursday, May 28, 2009





Some property agent is here to view the house now! F! I dun want... How i wish i can just chase him out of the hse! F! Go away...



This is life@
10:29 PM
Wednesday, May 27, 2009





Watching 双子星 now(: The show like kinda nice! Haha

Okay back to monday! Went to astons with qing n chrysan(: Haha i was like super late, coz i felt like was going to faint so i had no choice XD We spent the day today la lol! After astons went to play bball machine and some other games lol(: haha, its like my routine now to play bball machine! Haha then we walked ard PS(: And finally settled in mac for icecream(: heh heh! then chatted there all e way till 9pm i think!

Then ytd spent the whole day at home! It was nice! Haha, i aired my room, changed my bedsheet n all! Whee(: Then i love my room now(:

Today went to meet mel(: Accompanied her to shop ard n all(:

Nth much to update actually! I want to work! Coz i want moneyXD I think i'm getting so slack again zzz!



This is life@
8:58 PM





Ytd met mel n mo for carls junior(: Then after that went to baby's hse! Haha helped her take photos to sell her clothes n all(: Then stayed till 7 plus then go home! Cam whored like usual! Do crazy poses tgt! Haha, but i'm lazy to upload e photos! So when i upload i'll update(:

N when i got home ytd night, i was having fever! OmgXD so sian

Early morning joyce n wanting msged me to tell me that Kris won American Idol! Haha, okay i wun say that I'm surprised, coz its really tough competition between e guys! But it was kinda sad that Adam dint win T_T But whatever it is, i think he's alr e idol(: At least my idol! haha all e way guys(: I think both of them are great!


BECAUSE OF FEVER, COUGH, FLU I GOT TO CANCEL MY ASTONS DATE WITH YISHAN TODAY! N IKEA WITH JOYCE, GER N JERM TMR )): DAMN!
I went to see doctor in e noon! 39.3degree celsius! Haha, it had been long since i had such high fever! XD Then today when I was in the clinic, there was one indian lady, sitting quite near me! After she heard i told e nurse i got fever n cough, I think she got scared and then she stood up n sat all e way till the other end from me! Haha, well i can't blame her for that, but yes, ppl, are definitely very very realistic! So whatever!

Watching idol now!

N should i go?? HMMM SHOULD I?? XD



This is life@
11:14 PM
Thursday, May 21, 2009





I had been REALLY BUSY! That i had totally no time to blog coz i'm so shagged when i reached home. I just wanna bathe n sleep!

SO WARNING: The following post is gonna be LONG!

13/4
Morning, went tuition. Lol nth much to say abt this.

After tuition went to meet jess in town, to shop a little while coz she wanna buy her pumps. Haha, then after that took 105 back to ny(: For QGY(: Happy lehs(: So rched NY kinda early n we went to take our certs then to LT2(: Yan Jun lao shi was alr there, playing piano! haha so when we stepped in no one was there la, except wenleng! haha, so i listened to yj laoshi playing piano, so nice i wanna learn how to play with proper chords n blah! But i dunno how to read scores in bean sprouts ): So sad right T_T Then i started playing also, whatever that comes to my mind! Haha, after that e ppl started to stream in(like FINALLY)!!

Watched a video by exco! haha so cool! esp when there's our pics in it coz we've alr graduated! haha nice juniors(: All e memories flooding my mind as i was watching, coz they put synergy's pic too! Xmix(: I think its e best part of my JC life(: Srsly it was! (: Miss chilling with weijian, jess n e rest at mac! ): N blah a lot a lot a lot of stuff!

After that yj laoshi sang with renyi(: haha, she's got a nice voice, e co teachers are really a gang of very hip teachers and they communicate n share the thoughts of their students. Hard to find teachers that put students as the first in their list nowadays i guess!

Then we went back to CO rm for e veggie buffet! haha not that its all veggie, but its a vegetarian buffet(: Haha its kinda cool too, to eat smth that you dun usually eat! haha, n e food is really nt bad(:

Took photos n all, then left for the briefing! At tanah merahXD

N i was late again! Why can't I just get rid of this super irritating bad habit ): So met up with shuxin, wt n may! Then we managed to find our way to e kinda ulu place(: So yea. N briefing ended at 11plus! Its like OH MY GOODNESS! Its gonna be such a long way home can! N we've got private sales the nxt day!XD

So yea, took 31, rched home ard 12 plus. Bathed, n slpt.
took this with rong-er on 4/5 when nyco was rehearsing in SCH(:
And this with weijian while waiting for results on syf day(: He kept saying how cute he was after we took each shot. So i hear until i sian diao lol!

14/5, PRIVATE SALES
Woke up ard 6plus! Then got ready n blah blah blah! Met shuxin n yl at tpy interchange(: I was near punctual. N yes, near means, i'm still a little late! Then we reached orchard first, waited awhile for wt! N we dint realised ky was outside! haha n i haven seen her with her specs for very long alr! Haha cute la yan jie(: Then in the end, we waited for jess to reach then we go off tgt! Ding, selena, thamtham and may was alr outside too haha! Dint really expected it! But its okay, so yea, dispersed to our respective departments after hand punching(: N a busy day was just abt to commence!

For me, I started writing, pressing e calculator and giving out vouchers, LIKE NON STOP! So was really really busy! But initially was still kinda okay XD So everyone msging each other break times n all! so i got e same break as shiqing n yenleng(: Worked until lunch time(: I dint even realised! Time past damn fast that day srsly! I realised it was lunch time when i look up n saw qing waiting for me there! Haha, then after settling everything, saw yl also! haha, so three of us went to eat subway i think! haha, qing's feet alr a little cmi le! haha then she kept telling me how boy she looked that day! That girl is so cute la! Haha, okay, then crapped with her throughout lunch(: Talked to yl too, lol luckily they knew each other too(: After that poor us got to go back work again!

Saw shuxin going down e escalator when she's going for her lunch!! All sorts of customers n blah!

N srsly, I DUN BELIEVE THERE'S ECONOMIC DOWNTURN! OR at least i think it dint really affected e ppl shopping there that day. Unless if you put in that way-economic downturn that's why got sales everyone shopped like mad to save money in long term! So whatever it is, there are really really big spenders! Spending thousands n thousands of dollars on whatever merchandise!

BUT the highlight of the day was SOMEONE ACTUALLY SPENT A GD $63,788 ON COSMETICS ALONE! SRSLY WTH? But that girl does seems like a nice girl, coz she was patiently waiting while we counted for her, the 6000plus vouchers that she's entitled to!
So continued to bury my head in work, until I pop my head up n saw qing again! hahaha, then i realised OH DINNER(: Haha but dinner was at 4plus pm, like freaking early pls!!! So we dint really eat alr, coz it felt like we just eaten! N we still got e subway cookie that we dint managed to finish previously! So we went to mos burger, yl n i drank soup. Then three of us shared a big milk tea! Haha, i love crapping with qing! Some of her expressions are really classic! Lol, n her feet is feeling worse though! N she kept telling yl how easy for us to just sit there n keep writing! Lol!

So continued working! Started to regret for not eating dinner, coz my stomach growls like nobody's business when it was 7/8 plus pm! When it was 10pm, supposedly time to knock off, there are still ppl streaming in to collect their vouchers! Gd job lor these ppl! When its finally done, we started to tally up all e quantities n amt of vouchers we've given out! OMG IT WAS A TOTAL NIGHTMARE! XD So shuxin came over to find me, coz they're all done alr, so i told them to go back first! (We still have matrix race e nxt morning!)

Yup, then qing came over coz she wanna wait for xiaoshi! N she took a chair to sit down in front of me! N i was frustrated n vexed with e tally up work! Coz it was SO TROUBLESOME! N esp when things dun tally, its another rd of work to doXD Then just when i was like so ultimately sianned, qing started to play with e stamps! Haha she's like a kid having fun with his new bought toys! So curiosity took over her n she started to stamp on papers! Lol, i was like rolling my eyes at her, couldn't believe my eyes. Haha but i think its because i stamped until i wanna puke alr! zzz! Okay, so mood got a little btr with her funny actions! N finally it was all done at 11pm i think! So finally left isetan with ding, qing n xiaoshi! Ding left first coz selena waiting for her!

Went to e mrt station with e two of them, then jiejie n i wanna get drinks. Haha then we scared xiaoshi will miss her train so she left first. While we took our own sweet time to choose e drink! Settle on fruit tea, that qing dun really like in e end LOL! So we chatted a little bit n all! So yupp, waiting now for NXT MEET UP(: N oh yea, her feet, i think they were so dead at e end of e day that she alr couldn't walk properly! haha so rched home alr 12am again XD Bathed n used com awhile to find directions to MGS.

15/5, MATRIX RACE
We had to reach MGS at 6:30am. May called me, I picked up e phone. Opening my eyes, n saw e time, i dint jumped up from bed, just very feeling very sian n sick of myself. Coz my phone is nice enough to show me that the time is 6:30am! It was like omg la!! I woke up at 6:30am instead! So hurried n rushed through stuff, then chiong cab down! I think i waited 20mins for cab! XD Was so anxious laXD

So i reached ard 7:30am, like nt bad right! The cab fare also not bad! zzz! So whatever it was, walked super fast to e sports hall! Saw sx n wt! N we're supposed to get rdy n all alrXD I was still kinda blur abt wat's gonna happenXD So looked for arthur, n I ran after him as he showed me where e dance studio was.

After that i think shuxin got stung by a beeXD I can see a very small needle-like wound. So went to e toilet with her! Then we gotta give out e letters to e classes to start e event(: After e grps were rdy n all, we went to our respective stations(: I was at e freeze zone! Love e kids totally(: They're all so cute n awesome! Energetic, it was something that was so lacking from sec sch all e way up to JC. So i felt relighted by them. Hopefully this energy of theirs will not get killed, the way ours got! It was e upper pri's first. They were cute(: N i enjoyed every second with them(: Truly, I think places with kids' laughters and voices are really paradise(: They reminded you of things that you've long forgotten! They had e most energy and is most effective in lifting up your spirits that may alr be so weary after the many grown up days.

After the upper pri race ended, is the lower pri's turn(:

During the interval, we had a little debrief as to how to improve for e second race! Then after that when sx n i were left behind there, anne came to tok to us. N I totally knew how sx feels. N on my own, i dint really focus on wat was told to us. Coz i think, everyone really tend to impose their on ideas on others. Even the person advising us not to impose n let our own mindsets affect the kids, i think she's trying to impose her ideas on us too. N she totally dun get wat we're trying to say. So I doubt she sees e picture, n when i saw that, i couldn't bothered replying her. Just wanna let her finished wat she wanna say n then get down to e sec race, coz i know, its not gonna be fruitful even if we were to say anything more so whatever! Everyone has their own way of doing things n own mindsets. You may think you're right, but however, even if one does not do or think in your way, it doesn't mean he/she is wrong! Okay enough of this!

Thinking abt the lower pri excites me further(: They're all so small n tiny LOL. N even so, they're even more energetic than e upper pri at e very start of e briefing(: I was like telling shuxin while they were coming in, i wonder if they have facebook! Haha, then as we stood in front of 3.3 i think, e girls started to bombard us with questions! So cute la, kids' curiosity should not be so cruelly killed by sickening teachers and parents! Back to the girls, when I really couldn't take it i asked, so hey, you girls have facebook accounts? Hahaha, i wasn't really surprised to hear the yes-es, knowing that they lived in the era where they're exposed to such stuff since they were borned! haha but the confirmation to my question is still cool! For which, i dun even have msn when i was pri 3. Haha another girl suddenly asked if shuxin n i were sisters! hahaha

So for e lower pri, shuxin n i went to our stations much earlier! haha, she came over to e studio for a little while coz we're really really early(: Then awhile later e race started(: At first no one is at my station, so i played with e piano in e dance studio while e pv stood outside to see if there's ppl! Haha, so when e first group finally came, I brief them n we get started with e activities(: N that was when i decided i should start snapping photos! Lol, at the end of e day, the longest record created was 19mins(: By one grp of e upper pri. I think they're all great! Coz i doubt i can be so "frozen" for even 1/2 mins! haha

N another thing is, some parents nowadays is really dominating, so typical, exactly e same as how the parents in dramas acted. They may be with the gd intentions to want their kids to be the top, but they do it in the totally no-no way! They started to make decisions for their kids, so instead of leading their own lives, the kids are just puppets of their parents. In long term some may just become living creatures that take instructions instead of having a mind of their own, even as some may be able to break free from their parents' frames.

One parent that left e deepest impression was that when i said freeze, she was so very fierce to the kids, saying, "DON'T MOVE" (coz they're supposed to freeze there n not move), I mean, I noe she wans them to win n all, but still, not in this way. After that she turned to me, smile n then said, they nid to stay like that for how long? I answered that there was no limit! Then she was like okay three minutes enough alr coz they nid to get back to the finish line(they're gonna complete e race alr). So when three minutes was up, she said okay enough kids let's go let's go! They had no choice, but to move coz she's so dominating! Then she said, okay wait for me outside while i get the passport(score sheet actually).

I was like totally turned off! E objective is to have fun right, why made it so tensed up for the children! I think as the time goes by, its really not gd for e kids in whatever they do! So pls parents, reflect upon ur actions XD



After that there was briefing, at king's albert park, e mac there(: Stayed till ard 3:30pm, coz i was really late for work. So i took cab down to town! So sian! I hate spending on cab!

Then worked until night at isetan!!

16/5-17/5, ISETAN
Continued to work at isetan(: Full shifts for two days(: With ding n joyce! total love(: Esp when e ppl there are so nice too(: Was actually considering working at isetan on sunday! But its e supermarket that's hiring! So i'm nt that sure alr! Will discuss with ding ding abt that(: Sidetrack a bit: Wanting you asked for lobangs right lol! So u want work at supermarket not? Lol

Today went to sociology's interview. TOOK CAB AGAIN! zzz, i think i'm so sianned of NTU alrXD Written test first, then intervew. I think i'm dead once again! Forget it man. I shall just make plans for e worst!

每个人的心中都有属于自己的旋律,
只是当听到了其他人的主题曲,
往往就会忘了自己的声音,
想不起自己的歌曲,
然后失去了自我。



This is life@
12:00 AM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009





YTD supposed to have two tuitions, haha but both cancelled. So i ended up rotting at home. Until night, went to pool n played bball machine with simon! Haha super tyco during pool ytd! N bball machine srsly rawks(: Throwing e balls is like throwing away all my troubles. Cool, i like!

Then today morning met ding ding to take e tshirts! Lol, then after walk ard far east(: Then bought t-shirts! haha, forgot abt my shoes! Tmr going with jess(: so maybe i'll go n get them(: Then went to isetan supermarket, bought soft shell crab for lunch(: SO NICE(: But i think my throat is getting worse! I dunno why, i'm like totally nt recovering this time rd! Roar! XD

STARTING TMR ONWARDS I'M GONNA BE SUPER DUPER BUSY XD
MORNING-TUITION
AFTERNOON-NYCO QING GONG YAN(: GWH RMB(: HEHEHE ^^
NIGHT-BRIEFING FOR MATRIX RACE! XD

14/5-ISETAN PRIVATE SALES WHOLE DAY! XD

15/5-MORNING MATRIX RACE, NOON WORKING FOR ISETAN AGAIN, MOST LIKELY TILL NIGHT!

16/5-17/5-ISETAN!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! Typed out alr looks even more scary XD

OKAY GDNIGHT(:



This is life@
12:42 AM
Wednesday, May 13, 2009





Another must see ADAM LAMBERT'S PERFORMANCE(: That day forgot to put!

If I can't have you
http://www.americanidol.com/videos/season_8/performances/adam_lambert_if_i_cant_have_you


He's mad when he's a rocker. And yet so deep and definitely makes ppl touched when he sings ballad! His eyes are so deep that i think i can fall into them haha(: I like his level of focus when he's singing, he looks even more charming when he sings(:

I dunno why, but there's just something captivating in him, that i can't take my eyes of him! haha! N I super duper love his voice(: SO VERSATILE N FULL OF SURPRISES! (:






This is life@
2:53 AM
Monday, May 11, 2009





E boy's mum called at 12:30pm to tell me to go down for tuition at 1:30pm. Good job right she. Luckily I'm living very near tpy! Lol, but still i was slping soundly at 12:30pmXD Then after that i worked overtime man!

Went library after that, borrowed books(: Went to pasar malam, bought a lot of food back, spent ard $13.90! Can eat two astons meal manXD But well, i wasn't that happy today afternoon, so maybe that's why i suddenly bought more than wat i will buy usually. But its okay, since today is last day of e pasar malam.

And I shouted at my grandma just now. I know i shouldn't, and i feel really bad. But i really couldn't help it. I dunno why i get so flustered n impatient when she started telling me or asking me abt my sister. Then she shouted too, then after she left the room i just started crying. What the hell, i dun like feeling this feeling. I dunno how to be a sister, dunno how to be a granddaughter, dunno how to be a daughter, dunno how to be who i should be. Dunno how to be gd at home, dunno wat to do. How come other families can live tgt in harmony while mine can't. The divorce was alr bad enough. How come I just had no way to help my sis to turn her life ard. WHY! Grandma n aunt going to genting tmr, how i wish i can go too. But i can't ): That means i had to look after the hse, n blah blah blah. Everyone is worried abt my sis, why can't she just let ppl stop worrying abt her! N i think my temper is really bad, it shouldn't be so too. Why must I behave like that, esp towards my grandma. I shouldn't. Roar, slap myself!



This is life@
12:37 AM





Went TOPONE with yu jiejie, simon n xf today(: I miss singing sessions!! Haha, but my flu has not recovered fully yet T_T Sigh, i dunno wat's wrong with me zzz! Anyhow, so i spent my 11am to 6pm singing! Haha, yu left at ard 5plus pm to meet her bf! Then xf went home for dinner after that. So the two of us, decided to go arcade! Hahaha, n OMG(: BBALL MACHINE CRAZE IS BACK, for today i guess(: hahaha, i think we played ard 4-5 games? Lol, n e last two game is madness coz i dunno wat's wrong with us, e score is mad. I nv ever got so high b4(: I LOVE BBALL MACHINE(:


Yay, then after that went home! haha
okay nth much today! i wanna go shopping initially, but was turned off seeing e crowd!
so whatever, nxt time.
N my grandma kept asking me abt my sister. I was so fed up n all. I know its bad, but I totally dun feel like saying anything abt that. They should just stay at home if they're so concern. Its not as if i can control her if she's gonna bring whoever whoever back, its their job wat! N as if she'll listen to me. Whatever i dun care. I'm washing my hands of everything.



This is life@
11:12 PM
Saturday, May 09, 2009





I think that HE IS SO GONNA WIN AMERICAN IDOL 8(:

ADAM LAMBERT!!!!! (:
HE IS EFFING HOT!!

Actually I'm not much of an American Idol fan. I was so noob to the extent i didn't know carrie underwood, jordin sparks and more ppl came from American Idol. Haha so for american idol 8, as usual, i didn't really catch it. Even though i saw adam when he sang satisfaction and was fighting for e top 12. But I like him from e first time i saw him alr!! haha, and darling, from telling me how hot and cute kris is, she started to tell me abt how great adam performed every week! haha but still i was lazy to watch! N i said, okay i'll go search for his vids then(:

Hahaha SO I DID THAT TODAY(: N okay! Right now, my favourite of his songs is MAD WORLD(: OMG! U guys should go see it too! http://www.americanidol.com/videos/season_8/performances/adam_lambert_mad_world

He sang as though he was in much pain, so into the song. N i dunno if the song i found is sang by him, but it sounds like him? Lol, then when i listen again it doesn't! haha okay nvm, just watch his vid and catch him in action(: N of course, the other songs are definitely great too(:
I had been playing mad world, that vid i mean, for a million of times i guessed! hahaha n part of the list, is now temporary replaced after many many days of addiction! haha

SO I FRIGGIN LOVE HIM NOW(: HIS PERFORMANCES ARE AWESOME(:
N he shocked me with his very wide vocal! N i don't really care if he's a gay or wat, coz he's just GREAT(: His renditions of every song of different genres are just great!!! One of e best singers i had ever seen(:








Mad World
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere


And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow


And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had


I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad World


Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen


Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow


And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad World
Mad World
Mad World

Yeah, Mad world we're living inXD



This is life@
2:02 AM





Slpt till 2plus pm today((: Love slping, its the best moments where you can just sorta stop thinking reality for that little short while.

After that watched tv, at 5pm, watched yu le bai fen bai. Had been long since i watched it. N the first part of e show today is xiaozhu commenting abt his recent incident. N somehow i felt my heart going out to him. If whatever he said is true, i think he's so gonna feel like shit. Its like not only betrayal. Someone that you THINK you can trust, then trampled on that trust. How is he gonna trust again in the future? Its certain stupid ppl, that causes certain ppl affected to change. It may not be change for e btr. Making friends and all are always from the heart, shouldn't it be so? Why make things so complicated? Well i guess its just the evil inside ppl that's making things this way, n it SHOULDN'T BE SO!

N just a random thought. Initially, blog is just a space for every individual(who has one), to voice out their inner thoughts and updating their ongoings n all. It still should be it now. Tagboards, are for people who care n love them, to comment. So some other unrelated ppl, its either you give constructive comment, or you dun read the post at all right. I keep seeing junvenile ppl spamming ppl's blog here n there. So you can strongly disagree with wat A had said on his blog, very unhappy with B coz of wat he mentioned, and so on. But I think its just that everyone is different and obviously have different mindsets. One should still respect the fact that they all had their own lives to lead. Own happenings going on in their lives. So, dun feel so bad abt whatever they said, coz its their lives. N i'm sure they are not having the intention to purposely let you see it, so that they can make you feel bad or wat.

So yea, time to bath! N hopefully gd luck for tonight! I feel incompetant now, as i was going through my em txtbks n notebksXD rahhh ):



This is life@
6:06 PM
Friday, May 08, 2009





I am very very tired now. My eyelids are super duper heavy! Its like however strong e muscle is, it can't resist e gravity plus its willingness to close haha. Okay i'm gonna type fast(:

I hope today is not as screwed. Cross Fingers! N thxs to yishan for waking me up(: 4 plus pm met up with darling to take pay(: WHEEEE(: I LOVE PAYDAYS(: $_$ Okay, like very money face. N i like spending all my money on food, dunno to be happy or sad. After that we went to find ger, and then waited for jerm today(: So i bought royce choc today, n ate ajisen as dinner! Haha, its a gd 30plus gone alr. Today spent a lot srsly. So no more spending so much for me for e nxt few weeks until nxt pay comes in(: But i wanna shop n buy clothes T_T Shall see how! I wished there's no tuition today so that i can be with them for longer time, so long nv meet up alr i think T_T

N just as we were discussing abt meet up nxt week, i realised my nxt week is BUSY! Srsly is. So now i wanna note down wat's e ongoings, in case i forget abt them!

PLUS TMR EM TUITION T_T I'M AWFULLY SCARED! Coz i srsly think i returned all maths stuff to mr ng alr zzz! I'm sad abt that, sigh. Most likely she's at geometrical transformation now! N YUP THAT'S RIGHT! That's e topic that I THINK I'VE TOTALLY FORGOTTEN! ROAR! Tmr must revise revise! But how to right, so last min. Gd luck for me T_T Hope they're fast n at probability alr!! XD



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1:16 AM





编号6,南洋初级学院,荣(ALL OF US JUMPED UP FROM OUR SEATS N STARTED CHEERING!)誉金! WOOOO CHEER LIKE MAD!!! E announcer gotta wait for kinda long for us to stop so that he can continue annoucing other schs result.

Haha TODAY IS SYF DAY(: A day with a whirl of emotions. Srsly. Morning, they were all so stress n blah blah blah, coz all kanna scolded by ding again zzz. Poor thing! Then after that we set off to SCH(: Waited, tuned, n up e stage they go(: We were at e back stage, listening n watching the tv at e same time. N they were great(: Except for some little mistakes, but they're negligible(:

I'M SO PROUD OF THEM(: 南初华乐团以黑马姿态,脱颖而出! 终于苦竟甘来、扬眉吐气!赞啦!They finished our unfinished job! Filled up our regrets. They helped us to get e honours that we dint successfully obtained 2 yrs back! And most of all, of coz wat is deserving for them(: All the hard work, practices everyday till late nights, even on labour day, are all paid back to them(: How i wish i got to stay another yr(: Such that i can feel even deeper for this moment of joy! N also, maybe results for As will be btr too, n i dun nid to suffer this anxiety n worrying abt uni. It doesn't feel good totally, seemingly a chance n then u blew it urself. N worse, most ppl ard u are alr accepted! I did that the other time, hopefully tmr will be okay. This is last chance i noe.

Long day today(: Stayed in NY from 5 plus pm when we were back to 10pm! I had to admit, even though jc life sucks(academic wise i think), I miss NY! The place, that watched me grew to another level.

Gdnight ppl(: Upload photos when i've gt them!



This is life@
12:03 AM
Thursday, May 07, 2009





Its 6/5 now! NYCO JIAYOU!!! Like in a few more hours, you guys will go out there n show off the hard work all these months! (: It felt like ytd for e 2007 syf we participated in. Now its alr 2009. Haha GOGOGO! Cya all in a few hours too(:

Today slacked ard at home, watching tv n all(: Then 7:30pm left house for tuition(: E boy was gd today(: Attentive! Me like! Haha coz it simply makes thing MUCH EASIER(: Hopefully he'll be like that for as long as i'm teaching him(:

Yea so nth much today actually. N i wun feel terribly sad or watever today, coz its over. I know I'm over it!

Goodnight!!! (:



This is life@
12:04 AM
Wednesday, May 06, 2009





I was playing e piano happily when sookhan called.
sh: where are you?"
me: home(thinking to myself why's she so random to call n ask where i m, meanwhile listening to the sounds of the mixture of instruments at the background)
sh: hur? still at home?
me: OH YA SHIT! I forgot all abt it!!!!!!

hung up e phone n rushed to bath after that. Alright, cause i was supposed to go down to nyco n then set off with them to SCH for the rehearsal for SYF.

How can someone be as blur as me right? Took cab down to SCH. It has been kinda long since i last took a cab! When i arrived, they haven got in yet. Luckily. Helped them to carry yangqing to e stage. I think I do miss those times back then, busy with practices and blah blah blah. And finally, getting all rdy for SYF. Though it was stressful and all, it was all worth it.

It wasn't that easy, getting new scores, starting to search for the correct notes, correct emotions, correct way of playing and most imptly, coordinating with everyone playing different parts and instruments to piece up the music. Its even harder, definitely, than doing a jigsaw puzzle. It has no shape, no colour to tally with. Coordination and feel do it all.

I like playing those beautiful pieces, whereby you feel yourself in it. I feel touched when we played the soothing part, excited when it comes to the fast beat, esply so when climax is rched, and the pt when u just end the song and then stay still for a few more seconds while listening to the echo of wat is left of the song. Everything just feel great, not a bit less. Enjoying yourself in everything you do, is definitely all it means. And though there are many politics in CO, strong bonds are forged too. I never regretted joining co. No matter in secondary sch or jc. I had my space, my emotions, holding the sticks, hitting every string with life. The resonance that came after that is simply wonderful. It feels like I was myself when i play. I wished I had the determination to continue. Now I have to search again, something that can make me feel like I'm myself. That I'm of some use with my own ability.

Anyway went down to isetan today for registration(:

Saw a lot of familiar faces(: But qing n xiaoshi were late, like for an hr! So i dint get to really tok to dearest jiejieT_T After registering, ate subway with sx, ky, wt and yl. Did some catching up(: N went back tpy after that, shuxin accompanied me to get my solutions(: Thanks girl!

These few days my eyes don't feel like mine. I know its weird to say this. But i really think there's something wrong with it. I'm scared, totally freaked out. When the vision suddenly became blur. I dunno whether its with the contact lens or that i'm not having enough sleep. I looked into the mirror, sometimes its red, sometimes it looks normal. Seeing eyes that doesn't look like mine is not a very gd feeling. Okay, hopefully this is gonna be over soon, pls. Go away.

I think i need fresh and clean air, maybe i should really clean up my rm. Dun wanna get sick again! And though i had finished medicine, i dun think i'm anyway btr. Maybe a little.



This is life@
2:26 AM
Tuesday, May 05, 2009





LAST DAY OF WORK(:

Finally came to e last day. Happy(: I can now have a little more time for myself, take a little break. There's still tuition though, esp when mye is coming. N kids are hard to handle. Nice to play with, and hard to get them to really sit down n focus! Roar! How howXD

N now without work, i may just screw my body clock again! haha so i must try to sleep early(: Like its 2plus am now? N my right eye doesn't feel right! Dunno whether iszit infectionXD Think I have to stay away from contacts for awhile, shall see how it goes.

Seeing joyce's writing her book makes me feel that she's different in a sense, her book is really with substance compared to her usual self! I mean e girl that's usually so horny n all, lol i think its e right word, but deep in her, imagination really is wow! Fantastic(: N i'm hooked to her sec bk now. Bedful of moonlight!

She asked me to give writing a try too! Lol, shall see how it goes. But mine's definitely not gonna be in english, if anything like that is gonna be created in the first place haha.

Okay goodnight(:



This is life@
1:43 AM
Monday, May 04, 2009





Morning shift ytd!! Work isn't impt(: Most impt thing is after work(: Coz after work is chill out session with e girls!! -Mel baby, Ding, Jess and La(:

Haven go out with like all of them as one group ever since we graduated! E no. of times was alr very little when there's sch! Haha so ya all e pretty girls are surrounding me ytd! Hahaha! Met up with jess and la at e train station first, while waiting for baby n ding! Haha i think our eyes did become bigger when we saw e two of them! DROP DEAD GORGEOUS! Lol so dun mention abt those guys on e road! Lol, practically bio-ing them, esp MEL! Lol, okay mel will now shrug her shoulders and say hur wat? Anyhow, we went e wrong way at first!! N i think mel n ding's feet CMI! Lol their heels are really high!! So held on to them as we walked! Haha, imagine we still go e wrong way somemore! Haha! So when we finally reached bar stop, thankfully there are still seats(: I think our area is so cosy n comfy(: Catched up! Chatted n chatted, drank, ate, cam-whored. Haha, climax! Must be baby n ding's sexy photos! LOL all in all(: HAPPY that we met up finally(:
CLIMAX:P
They were kinda calm n posing demurely initially!
Things started to turn a little exciting!
Uh hurrr... Dun miss e nxt two photos!
This is crazy! But definitely NOT crazy enough! haha
THIS IS E ULTIMATE! Hahahaha! This photo is SOOOO HOT(:


Haha girls do crazy things tgt! Hahaha hopefully nxt meet up will be soon(:
N i saw chrysan with her sis as i was walking home that night haha
Yeah so end of my friday night(:


Gave tuition in e morning, ard 11am. Gotta think of ways to make e boy stay attentive man! Esp his mye is comingXD I really take my hat of my tuition tcher who taught me when i was p2 just like him. I guess i was also so inattentive and all! Haha, but she managed to teach me all e way till P6(: So it was all thanks to her that I am who I am today(: Though still nobody great, at least i know wat i ought to know!


After that went to work(: Darling writing her story, she finished a bit n i will take e book n read. Work is really uber bored! Though her handwritting isn't fit for human eyes, still i like her third book(: Kinda interesting, anticipating(:



AND this is my latest addiction! THANKS TO AU WANTING(:

E MOST ADDICTIVE EMO SONG (for me)
E lyrics is okay, but e melody is superb(:

Neyo-Part of the list
Style of your hair
Shape of your eyes and your nose
The way you stare
As if you see right through to my soul


Its your left hand and the way
that is not quite as big as your right
The way you stand in the mirror
Before we go out at night


Our quiet time
Your beautiful mind


They're all part of the list
Things that I miss
Things like your funny little laugh
Or the way you smile, or the way we kiss


What I noticed is this
I come up with something new
Every single time
That i sit and reminisce


The way your sweet smell
Lingers when you leave a room
Stories you tell
As we lay in bed all afternoon


I dream you now
Every night in my mind is where we meet
And when I'm awake
Staring at pictures of you asleep


Touching your face
Invading your space


They're all part of the list
Things that I miss
Things like your funny little laugh
Or the way you smile, or the way we kiss


What I noticed is this
I come up with something new
Every single time
That I sit and reminisce


And you live in my memories
Forever more I swear
And you live in my memories
Forever more I swear


They're all part of the list
Things that I miss
Things like your funny little laugh
Or the way you smile, or the way we kiss
What I noticed is this
I come up with something new
Every single time
That I sit and reminisce



This is life@
12:25 AM
Sunday, May 03, 2009