Went back btyco today! It was nice, and in a way familiar. Just like wat i had mentioned ytd, 景物依旧，人事亦非。So yes, everything was e same, but nt the ppl and the ongoing things. It just seemed yesterday when I was in bty, look now, i had alr completed As n on my way to another phase of my life. N everything was different alr esp friendship or all sorts of relationship that used to be so close. All i can say is time is such a cruel thing, it weakens all bond that was once close but we did not held on. Or maybe we only have ourselves to blame for not holding on. Sometimes, its just hard to do that. So, u're nt as close as before, 无奈 and 遗憾 is e only thing left lingering. Furthermore, what else can u do? Some things cannot be regained once u've lost it. This is really the last thing i wanna see, but i guess, it was all too deep in us, that after so long, we still can't talk again like nth had happened. Isn't it so? Maybe deep in, we still care abt wat's going on in each other's lives. But then wat else can we do? When we had somehow decided to not interfere in each other's lives. Life is just full of contradiction. For me, its really really sad, to lose a friend really close. But it happened, and i can't change it. How i wish i can.
We had some regrets in life
But we can't turn back the time
And so we moved on
but even so we remember how life was back then
Contented and thankful that it once happened.
Relying on memories, but how trueful it is.
Everything changes, and so does e memories still hold?
Does what i know abt u still hold?
As long as i'm not there for a fraction of ur life, it may just mean that things will nv gonna be the same. Coz the things i had missed out, will nv get replayed.
How much faith can i have in a new one, when the faith was broken by another one. Even as optimistic as i am, telling myself its not gonna be the same. Can i believe that its a mutual feeling? Lost and confused. N i noe, only i can help myself to sort this out.
N all e words above, are all my random thoughts, referring to different matters, even i find it confusing. I've got to untangle the tangled.
N btw, i took photos with lay today(: Happy!
She srsly plays a big part in my sec sch life.
This is e girl, that i truly owe an apology to. This is e girl, that i should have held close to our friendship, but i dint coz of another. I did nt do my part as a friend. I failed terribly. I M BAD! ROAR! Sorry lay. This is late, and a regret for life. I'm sorry.
This is life@
11:04 PM
♥Friday, April 03, 2009