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Accompanied mayy down to SIM today(: Lol after settling on e admission n payment thingy, we went to ikea for nice n cheap food LOL! Okay basically just e sausage bread(: heavenly(: FOOD AHH!! But why must ikea be so far awayyy!! Oh my T_T Lol ate meatballs n salmon the other day with ger n jerm, its OMG NICEEE(: I'm craving for food now! T_T but there's nth to eat, so i shall slp soon!

Was listening to classical pieces at imeem just now(: Seriously when will i get to learn piano T_T N i still got a long list of instruments i wanna learn. Life is so short, i wanna do things that i wanna do. I wanna be freed!

-A life in music is a life beautifully spent
-Music washes away from the soul, the dust of everyday life.
-There is no feeling, maybe except the extremes of fear and grief, that does not find relief in music.
-There's music in all things, if we have ears; The earth is but the music of the spheres.
-We love music for the buried hopes, the garnered memories, the tender feelings it can summon at a touch.
-Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent.

Beautiful quotes to describe music isn't it. But somehow, music is nt possible to be replaced by merely words when u've nt heard of any. So be thankful, for ur ability to hear.

As the night gets darker, the thoughts get deeper.



This is life@
3:15 AM
♥Tuesday, March 31, 2009





Jerm just showed me a super cool remix(: lol!



ohhh n i find this mv really artistic n cool! esp e way they shoot e violin(: nt that e song is uber nice, but e whole orchestra n arrangement behind e song is simply awesome(:

coldplay-viva la vida



This is life@
1:15 AM
♥Monday, March 30, 2009





TELL ME WAT'S E WORLD BECOMING TO><

My god la. After wat e beastly dad in Austria had done n been discovered(i'm sure most of u noe abt it right!), e verdict had just been given a few weeks ago i think. Another similiar case happened! OH GOD LA! Its in columbia! E dad also committed incest with his five yrs old daughter(now 35yrs old) after his wife died not long ago. N had 8 kids with e daughter! ITS LIKE WTF!!! How can a dad be like this... I think there must still be things like that ard in e world, sigh. When will e world be a safer place to live in!



This is life@
7:21 PM
♥Sunday, March 29, 2009





Its a slow, slack day.

Watching css3 now. Guo meimei has became more beautiful(: N i always think that she has a nice voice, but they always give her rubbish songs to sing. She speaks like kelly lol! In a way, resembles AA's way of singing(: Lol that girl passed her first audition ytd(: Going topone with her soon! Hehehe YAY SINGING TIME SOON(:

Just now mayy gave me an astrology website, whereby they give u ur personal analysis on different aspects. Kinda accurate in a way. Sometimes u may not know urself best, an external source is needed to let u see urself in a different way.

I wish for a machine, that can playback my life, that can let me see how i behave myself. N from there judge myself as if i'm another person.

Sometimes, things happened at e most unexpected time.



This is life@
6:09 PM
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Guess wat time i woke up today? ITS A GD 8:30am!!!! WOOOTS!

Ytd slacked at home for awhile, conferenced call with ger n joyce at 3 plus pm! N HELL!! My phone failed to hold e conference call ): when i clicked join calls, it just replied to me failed! Tried so many times till i give up zzz. So in e end called ger for conference, n that silly penguin got to try hosting a conference call for e first time LOL.

Hung up e phone at 3:45pm, went to astons for dinner with edwin(: Saw jiejie n jk! Lol, like so qiao okay. N DID I SAY BEFORE? I'M SUPER IN LOVE WITH ASTONS' BAKED POTATO EVER SINCE I FIRST TASTED IT!! My taste buds told me ITS E FOOD(: IT TASTED HEAVENLY LA((: N i want an oven at home T_T So that i can try making my own baked potato lol!

After dinner, we walked to orchard. Walked ard taka n sat on some random bench eventually! I'm gonna start work soon there lol! 6/4! Come patronise lol! We sell healthy chocs this time rd coz its a healthy fair LOL. I dun care if eating chocs are sinful indulgence or wat i'll still eat! Lol, coz to me, if i dun eat nice food, its then a sin hahaha.

So after that went home while waiting for yishan! Ate my another dinner/supper at 10plus pm! Lol, n that girl came over for slpover! LOL, like usual she's so shag! I srsly think she's drunk all e while though she has not been drinking. Esp in e night! But its so fun having her ard all e time((: LOVEEE(:

Woke up at 8plus am like i mentioned(wat a miracle!!), lol n that girl is still slping like a log okay(i slpt much later than her!). Anyhow, haha we went yakun for breakfast. I miss e morning sky sometimes, coz i always dun get to see it by e time i woke up! Then after that she went to work, n i went to e library. Borrowed an astrology book which i'm reading now! I think its so kinda accurate n interesting!

n i asked myself, is he gonna be e one...



This is life@
2:18 PM
♥Saturday, March 28, 2009





Woke up late today lol! N went to sk to have lunch with edwin. Curry san kinda nice lol! N kinda spicy also! Sat somewhere n tok for super long! Lol, after that went town to meet joyce, ger n jerm(: Lol, like a real gd catching up/gossiping session! LOL! Its so nice sitting at mac cafe there(i always liked that place)n just chat n chat! Srsly, its e first time, after so long that we stayed ard sitting somewhere n chatting for so so long! Lol. Great(: Too bad both jerm n ger dint bring along their cam T_T so we dint take photos! Seems like much talking is involved today lol! I like(:

Nobody knows, but it may just be another new beginning(:



This is life@
4:44 AM
♥Friday, March 27, 2009





Met mel n mo today(: Carls Junior for fries lol! SUPERB(: Took a few photos lol! N a stupid video><

Lol after that met sookie to go ny tgt, veron was there alr. Kinda nice to go back there, n we went back on e right practice lol! Stayed for quite long, glad to be back. Talking to a lot of familiar ppl, n seeing e CO with so many ppl now, its kinda nice too. Jess when u free we go back tgt also lehhs><

Talk a lot, got to know quite a lot of things lol. Hopefully, this yr's syf will be a gd gold with honours(: I'm sure they can do it! LOL JIAYOU(:
Will go back to btyco soon also! SYF also coming up! LOL
N i watched phantom of the opera just now when i'm back home. Goodness, though i've alr watched it for a million times, its still as nice! I think i'll nv get sick of it! Nice songs, great singers, an awesome musical with an awesome story(: In someway makes ppl start to think. Distorted heart, is indeed more scary than a distorted face. Evil, everyone has it in them, its up to u to let e gd inside u fight it. U control e evil, n not let e evil control u. Simply love this show(: I'm always so into e show n their songs!



Music of the night
Nighttime sharpens, heightens each sensation.
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination.
Silently the senses abandon their defences
Slowly, gently, night unfurls its splendour.
Grasp it, sense it tremulous and tender.
Turn your face away from the garish light of day,
Turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light
-and listen to the music of the night ...
Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before!
Close your eyes, let your spirit start to soar!
And you'll live as you've never lived before
Softly, deftly, music shall caress you
Hear it, feel it, secretly possess you
Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind,
in this darkness that you know you cannot fight
the darkness of the music of the night.
Let your mind start a journey through a strange, new world!
Leave all thoughts of the life you knew before!
Let your soul take you where you long to be!
Only then can you belong to me
Floating, falling, sweet intoxication!
Touch me, trust me, savour each sensation!
Let the dream begin, let your darker side give in
To the power of the music that I write
The power of the music of the night
You alone can make my song take flight
Help me make the music of the night



All i ask of you
(Raoul)
No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I'm here, nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you
Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I'm here, with you, beside you
To guard you and to guide you
(Christine)
Say you'll love me every waking moment
Turn my head with talk of summer time
Say you need me with you now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you
[Raoul]
Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light
You're safe, no one will find you
Your fears are far behind you
[Christine]
All I want is freedom
A world with no more night
And you, always beside me
To hold me and to hide me
[Raoul]
Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you here, beside you
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Christine, that's all I ask of you
[Christine]
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you
[Both]
Share each day with me, each night, each morning
[Christine]Say you love me
[Raoul]You know I do
[Both]
Love me, that's all I ask of you
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Love me, that's all I ask of you


There are too many beautiful pieces lol, these two are e most significant one! Lol beautiful is e only word i can describe e songs!



This is life@
1:08 AM
♥Thursday, March 26, 2009





Mesmerize by e sound of guitar.........

MR EDWIN CUM MR GUITARIST! Okay went out with him to serangoon gardens on tues(: Nice guy with great smile LOL. Went to eat at astons n frolicks. FILLING DAY WITH NTH BUT FOOD(: But i love food so i dun mind lol! Then after that we're too bored so we went to marina square where he catched some mini soft toys(lol really are mini) n a cute little me-to-u bear. Okay, very pro. I think if its me, all e one-dollar coins will just be given to e machine la! Maybe one day i'll go play with it n become a pro! LOL we shall see(:

PS: He "forced" me to blog abt him, so i shall be nice n blog abt him(: LOL

Anyway... after that went to braddell mrt station to meet yishan. He is nice enough to accompany me to braddell n then go back all e way to sengkang. Arigato lol! I had botak jones with shan that evening. REALLY VERY FULL! Until e point i think i'll vomit if i were to eat anything more>< So after that we went to sit at a void deck near beatty n chatted for dunno how long! Once we start to talk we cannot stop, there's simply too much lol! N its a very nice feeling to have a friend like this, she's one of e few i can really tok to. Lol, 9yrs of friendship n counting(: N she behaved like she's drunk when she's full lol! After that she walked me to a point where we say our goodbyes. Haha I walked homm then(: Recently i'm very in love with walking home from bty there. Save transport fares, n i can use e time to sort out my thoughts, think of stuff. Its nice(:


LOVE THIS GIRL!<3



This is life@
1:24 AM
♥Wednesday, March 25, 2009






N i dun think i've mention before! But he is my new addicitioN!!! KIM BUM(:



This is life@
6:47 PM
♥Friday, March 20, 2009





Uhhh today was kinda sian lol. Rot at home n do nth! Supposed to meet may n go cycling today! But weather was nt that gd n we're tired! Plus i'm having runny nose! oh my, i think my tissue is gonna be used up soon, n i think i'll rub off e skin ard my nose soon godXD Hate runny nose! N feel feverish lol! I DUN WANT TO BE SICK AGAIN T_T

Anyway, ytd went to bowl with wt n may! Lol had fun(: N civil service club dint changed much. I rmb going there during my sec1 n sec2 days, with that gang of jokers lol. Time flies. We took dunno how many photos during e 2 games lol! We went to have prata after that, n three of us did a really sinful thing! ><><

After that met up with jerm n ger to go ikea! N i finally got to try e famous meatballs there!! N salmon! IT WAS OMG NICE(: But gotta share with ppl i think, more worth it! Then after dinner they slacked at my place watching slumdog millionaire! Lol. Kinda like that cosy feeling with all e food on e floor(oh jerm n i went to pasar malam before we watched slumdog, coz ger is lazy to move zzz...) But we dint take any photos! LOL once in a blue moon jerm dint bring his cam along! haha

I wanna find a job(: Something two weeks lol, such that i'll have money! N after that going back to be my promoter selling prestat chocolates lol! I had to say, queen's choc is indeed different!



This is life@
6:12 PM
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What a way to meet again, on a most unexpected day. It was really unexpected, so kinda shocked, so that i dint even have time to react. It may seem rude or i-still-can't-face-him kinda thing, but was just passing by i can't do much also. Meeting a most familiar face, using a most unfamiliar way to adknowledge that I saw him. N wat is reality, is that now he is a passer-by n no more. There may be things he still wanna say, but other than those that i heard for a million times, wat else. I hope there's no longer guilt in him now, wishing him all e best, that's wat i can do. I said b4 dint I? Its nt that possible to even be friends again after all that happened.



This is life@
8:21 PM
♥Wednesday, March 18, 2009





I WENT TO HENDERSON WAVES TODAY(:

Proud of myself coz its such a long walk! LOL n we are sweating like mad while walking! A little pity is jerm, ger, aa n myself dint managed to stay till night time!! Nevertheless its still very nice to sit there n eat e food we prepare ourselves(: Got standard one! LOL, took lots of photos(:


N LITTLE COUSIN IS BORNED YTD(: 17/3^^ He's cute n healthy baby boy(: He looks like his daddy! N I FINALLY GOT A LITTLE BROTHER(: YAY!



This is life@
12:37 AM
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I think I've let it go.
I think I've let you go.
Its time to start my new life(:

我曾深深的爱过你
曾 深信不移

I guess its all enough.



This is life@
11:09 PM
♥Friday, March 13, 2009





Just realised i haven blog for quite a few days! Haha lazyXD

Finally got to meet up with jerm, ger n joyce somedays before taking back As result! Lol, we went to astons(: N darling joyce turn up in an unexpected outfit! Pretty okay(: LOL! haha, n before taking results also ate lunch with them(: LOL yay! happy^^ Time flies la! We've know each other for alr like 4yrs! lol!



Thurs went overnight K with aa n hr(: LOL!! AA also! super long nv see her n finally! (: I think i mentioned it alr(: Now photos(:





Sat went to celebrate yl's bd with wt n 3sa! We went to topone! Lol finally one place btr than kbox(: I mean really btr!! Haha though they dun hav some songs that kbox have! But its okay(: I think its still nicer than kbox! Told aa also! Lol it shall be e place if we go sing e nxt time! (thxs to 3sa)



Ytd went out with mayy, lennon n hr to e airport. T3! Finally seen it! Anyway, it was kinda peaceful n quiet there! N hr was late lol! So e three of us just walk ard n everyone was nt as high as usual! Lol whatever is e reason, outing is still enjoyable(:


Today was supposed to have picnic with jerm, ger, aa, joyce! But we postponed it to nxt tues(: So yea, n we'll plan our picnic well haha! Anyway, so today i went back to ny with wt n yl to ask ms seah abt mathematics course. Then after that met mel after sch n hang out e rest of e day with her(: Yay! FUN LEH(: N oh btw, glad to see that both mel n mo are doing very well now(: Jiayou(:

Haha mel n i planned to go amk library at first, but that sotong forgot her calculator, so in e end we went to compass pt, e sengkeng library to eat wedges lol! Its nice i think, with e cheese(: Just that amk's wedges is more crispy(: lol! anyhow, each has their own gd! haha n food is nice! Can't wait for e one month to be over so that i can eat anything i wan(: Anyway, after that went to mel's hse! hahaha slack there and read my book while she's doing her tutorials! Lol after she finished her stuff we went mad la! Lol she painted my nails for e sake of fun! hahaha n after that we cam whore like usual(: LOL! our favourite hobby i guess! Heh photos (:



awww i'm feeling hungry again looking at this haha!

lol this is her awesome, cool sandals (: lol!
I super love e feel of this photo(:




lol we look dumb(: but its okay! haha




This is her very cute mirror(:


See this is my studious baby(: MEL^^
Just wanna tell her, this yr may be very tough for her, but....

I'll be behind her all e way(:
To help her JIAYOU(: YAY^^



This is life@
3:40 AM
♥Thursday, March 12, 2009





AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LESS THAN 12HRS!!!

I HAD NV FEEL AS UNEASY AS WAT I'M FEELING NOW! As SUCKS! TAKING BACK RESULTS SUCKS EVEN MORE!!! ROAR!!!

Sigh anyway, today met up with wt n ky, to shop for yl's present haha. Yea n they accompanied me for awhile after we're done coz i'm meeting aa n hr for K at suntec. Kgolden(: I get to see e long time no see AA(: N i get to occupy myself with smth, though As is still constantly on my mind. sigh. Yell like hell inside today, now i a bit no voice alr haha. Anyway, i'm happy to get to see AA(: but too bad she cant't join us tmr ): N her eddie came to fetch her, lol so i got shun feng che n i m home safe n sound now. Bt filled with worries right now, k i'll go slp soon, still nid to wake up tmr n face everything. I'm really tired sigh. Gdnight people!

N GOOD LUCK PPL(:

I SUPER NEED LUCK!!!

Will a miracle happen??? SIGH PLS HAPPEN!!!



This is life@
3:44 AM
♥Friday, March 06, 2009





First Day Of My Life
by Melanie C (Melanie Chisholm)

So I found a reason to stay alive
Try a little harder
see the other side
Talking to myself,
Too many sleepless nights
Try to find a meaning to this stupid life
I don’t want your sympathy
Sometimes I don’t know who to be


CHORUS:
Hey what you looking for
No one has the answer
They just want more
Hey who’s gonna make it right
This could be the first day of my life

So I found a reason to let it go
Tell you that I’m smiling
But I still need to grow
Will I find salvation in the arms of love
Will it stop me searching will it be enough
I don’t want your sympathy
Sometimes I don’t know who to be


CHORUS:
Hey what you looking for
No one has the answer but you just want more
Hey who’s gonna make it right
This could be the first day of my life


BRIDGE:
The first time to really feel alive
The first time to break the chain
The first time to walk away from pain


CHORUS:
Hey what you looking for
No one has the answer we just want more
Hey who’s gonna make it right
This could be the first day of your life
Hey what you looking for
No one has the answer they just want more
Who’s gonna shine a light?
This could be the first day of my life

This is quite an old song(some yrs back). But i think its kinda meaningful n it makes me start thinking. All this yrs, we had been purchasing studies, trying our best to score well. Seriously, its till that point that i see no meaning in my life. I'm really trying to find a meaning to this stupid life. I dunno what's e purpose to keep studying. It may secure u a gd future and gd job, and then?

So maybe realeasing of As result will give me a new lease of life. No matter gd or bad. Though i'm sort of prepared for e worst. But i dunno wat can i do if e worst really come. I mean i had no plans in my head now, if i can't go uni and then? I was intending to like work n study at e same time. But i really dunno wat iszit gonna be like. I noe even if results is not decent, its all my fault. Its too late for regrets, n may be e start of having to bear e consequences. Luck is not gonna be with me forever. This time rd i dunno will it still be here. Its a fear or a feeling that i nv had before. I can feel e jitters since a few days ago when some mentioned that As will be realeased on 6th. I tried not to think, told ppl not to think too much n occupy urself with smth else first, but its kinda hard isn't it. These few days i just sank into deep thoughts easily. Dunno wat's e road gonna be like. Had a lot of emotions battling inside. But yet i can't really figure out wat they are. We shall see how, on fri.

But i really hope everyone of e ppl i noe, will at least get a decent grade or results that they want, including myself. Dun screwed us up at e most impt moment of our life after we chose JC. Good luck everyone.




This is life@
7:23 PM
♥Tuesday, March 03, 2009