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Sometimes, I just hoped that life will be much simpler. Such that there's less worries, less problems. I wonder sometimes, what's beyond my always cheerful smile. I always described myself as a happy-go-lucky person, iszit something that I alr labelled myself such that i forced myself to be happy always, or it really came from my heart. I used to think that I'm strong, always putting on a brave front. How many can actually see wat's deep within me? Even myself can't sometimes.

Not trusting ppl easily sometimes may be gd, u nid not worry so much, u save urself from getting hurt, u live in ur own world, protected. Who doesn't like to be protected by another one? What worse is when those who are supposed to be ur protector, hurt u themselves. When u finally opened the door to ur heart for them, they messed it up n left without looking back. So u cleaned up e mess urself coz of e stupid decision to open e door for them, n decided to shut e door even tighter this time. Nt allowing ppl to enter easily again, because u've spent majority of ur time clearing e mess, u wouldn't take e risk of another one messing it up again. N e one suffering will be urself, nt those who made a mess of ur life, they get away with excuses for themselves. What for treating them well all e while, what for making them another big part of ur life.

U can't forget e pain, even if u can forgive.



This is life@
12:49 AM
♥Tuesday, December 30, 2008