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2 more months to my bd(: 2 more days to mimi's bd, happy birthday in advanced darling(: and its also a supposedly happy day. now no longer.

I tot i'll walked out easily, i tot i'll be real strong. But i dint realised when i started to love him deep enough to feel e pain i'm feeling now. Without him, nothing feels right. Without his msges, nothing feels right too. Its bad enough to know that that's e reason for wat we become today. Its even worse when he said he doesn't have any recollections abt us. But flashbacks always appear in my mind, times we're together, many many, how can he have no recollections abt us. I tried my best to focus on my notes, but he kept intercepting my thoughts. I should try to see that everything was just a dream, n now its time to wake up. If i can feel better by thinking that way, but now i can only say, waking up everyday is a torture to me. Only when in my slp, i wun be able to think abt this, wun be able to think abt e upcoming As, wun be able to be sad.

Btw, keep hearing this song in chi version recently. E jap version is nice also! Its saying abt long distance relationship n e girl's tot while waiting for e guy. But some words inside seems to apply to myself now. sigh.




This is life@
7:40 PM
♥Saturday, October 04, 2008