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Hello!

Its been a long long time since i sat down n typed for this blog. Prelims is officially over today for me. But its weird i dint feel as happy as i tot i'll be.

2 reasons perhaps. As is nearer now, like 45 days more including today. Another reason must be its not e expected post-prelim for me. I tot today will be more than just like that. I dun usually use vulgarities, but right now, i feel so fucked up. Not trying to scold, just trying to vent out my frustrations n something that's in me for i dunno why. Today is just a bad bad day n it sucked. Quarreled with sis today morning, i tot i'll be happier when i see my friends or him. But no, maybe just e few moments when i'm talking to shuxin, or when he laughed when i appeared in interchange today for no reason. Other than that, today just sucked. Nth is within my expectation today, i was looking forward to a really big big feast today to make up for these few weeks time. But ha, i dint expect it that i haven even had dinner yet till now. I'm losing all appetite, losing all expections. All left now is disappointment. Oh man, i'm making myself feel so sad now. I need to eat to chase unhappiness away, i need those ppl who can make me laugh, where are they??

Whatever... I'm going to play audition now.



This is life@
8:25 PM
♥Thursday, September 18, 2008