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What if there's no tomorrow?? Lol nt trying to be emo or whatever. I just think that its somehow impt to cherish today and everyone ard u. What if i'll no longer be here tmr. I'll nt have e chance and ability to care for anyone else again so better do it now, do something like u'll never do it again lol. Well, cause you'll nv noe. So leave no regrets. This song sort of voice it out.

Alicia Keys-Like you'll never see me again

If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn’t feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I’d be wishing you were here
To be everything that I’d be looking for
I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you’ll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you’ll love me
Love me like you’ll never see me again
Oh Oh Ohhhhh

How many really know what love is?
No you never will
Do you know until you lose it
That it’s everything that we are looking for
When I wake up in the morning
You’re beside me
I’m so thankful that I found
Everything that I been looking for

I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So everytime you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you’ll never see me again(can you do that for me baby)
Every time you touch me(see we don’t really know)
Touch me like this is the last time(see everyday we never know)
Promise that you’ll love me(I want you to promise me)
Love me like you’ll never see me again(like you’ll never see me again)
Ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh



This is life@
3:08 PM
Sunday, March 30, 2008





Met up wif YISHAN on fri(: FINALLY(: Like how to say, we haven meet up even once since we graudated! N its nt like we graduated from e same sec sch, is from e same PRI sch! Counting back its like we haven meet up for like 5 YEARS! like OMG 5 YRS! OMG! N i dun get to see her often in e streets, dun msg her often. E only time we will get to see each other is at e bus stop near her hse(coz bty's near there). N is that kind i board e same bus that she alighted from at e same bus stop(e no. of times we met like this can be counted using three fingers). Sometimes i'm really wondering what is it that is keeping our friendship going. I mean we dun really talk to each other that frequently, dun even meet up. But once we start talking its gonna be at least an one hour plus plus plus thing. N is really can tok kind of friend. Feel very comfortable toking to her, i noe i can just pour everything out to her(: [n i can do this to jess too(: mel n shuxin at times(:]Its amazing that she's not like other pri sch friends. N truth to be told, I dun rmb many of them. N some are now just friends whereby we msg each other during festivals those u noe festive msges. So haha i've known her for 8 yrs, but actually it feels more than that. Others may nt be able to feel what i'm feeling, but i noe she can. lol. N i realised e only thing that had been increasing with my age is the no. of times i cried. I dun cry in pri sch, a little in sec sch, n see wat now in jc i'm like a crybaby. I must learn to be stronger, i mean how can i get more vulnerable as i get along in my life. So yup haha here is my eternal friend(:


After meeting up wif her, went back to co for practice. Its kinda weird when everyone is in sch's attire n i'm like some alien walking past. Lol yea coz it was a last min practice too. But its okay. Haha J1s are enthu ppl(: Though our session is nt say very productive yesterday, jiayou ppl(:

Then sports carnival today. I cannot stand e hot weather esp after e frisbee game. Perhaps coz e night before slept at 3 plus, dint eat breakfast n ya all n all. When I'm on my way back it just feels like that day i'm heading home from chalet where we tonned. So yea, kinda drained. Slept for like 2 hours n woke up at 2:30pm. N i'm aching. I think its really lack of exercise lol. I'm gonna die for napfa><

Lessons resuming on monday. Nt sure whether we'll get our scripts back or wat, but seriously this block test, i pin no hope so whatever. E thing is, after e 4 papers for e first week of block test. I had been in holiday mood. I'm trying to get it tuned back to e right channel. I had nv been in e right form i'm supposed to be. So maybe i'm gonna do some maths later if i gt e mood. I'm still feeling rather sleepy n tired. Gd luck for e rest taking back block test results(:

Byebye(:



This is life@
5:55 PM
Saturday, March 29, 2008





Chem is a goner for sure. So whatever. I'll stand up again. Now my biggest worry is they'll have parents' meeting session after block test results are out. Sigh. Rest for these two days. N plan for e future. Tough but e only route to take now is to continue moving forward. Everyone knows it, but how to overcome e obstacles within. That's e real problem to tackle. I'll think hard, n go.

Lol btw saw one nice blogskin yesterday(: n i decided to change my blogskin again(: i might nt have e time again anyway zzz. Piano, my ideal instrument to be learning(:



This is life@
11:32 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008





TMR IS PHYSICS PAPER! N eh i haven started doing my revision for physics! after this post(: I can't wait to find a song lol! n i finally found it! (:

My new addiction!
Frankie J-If He Can't Be

Girl why you look so sad
Why you sittin' there crying all alone
Tell me is it worth it

And girl you ain't got no shame
He must be insane to hurt you
You know
What I would do

*If u want
I could be your number one
Lift you higher than the sun
Might sound crazy
But crazier things have happened

Tell you what
I could be your place to run
Do what that one's never done
Show you love,my heart, my soul
I promise baby

**If he can't be what you need
Then girl you better go with me
Can't nobody do it like me
So girl come with me
No he can't be what you need
Girl you better go with me
Can't nobody do it like me
I want you beside me

You are so beautiful (look so beautiful)
You deserve better (you deserve better)
Better than him yeah
So leave everything behind
Ride together (ride together)
And I promise that I'll never let you down*

If he can't understand (then I can take his place)
come and take my hand (I want to take his place)
Let me be your man (I need to take his place)
I know that i can
I'm gonna take his place yeah**

Ultimate sweetness(: This song is so sweet! N Frankie J has a nice voice(:


Jiayou for physics tmr ppl(: GD LUCK(:



This is life@
10:00 PM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008





I'M USING MEL'S LAPTOP NOW! I've been at her house since like 10:50am today! Our aim today is to STUDY! Like not very productive today too, but at least i did something. As in like going through my maths stuff. Okay. Took a break in between to call jess. LOL. N i realised that these few days i had been calling her. The girl having flu, do takkaire of urself okay, block test is nt just rd e corner i mean yea u noe its like mon n today is sat(n sat is ending like 4 hrs later). So recover soon okay(: When doing papers then u'll be in tip-top condition! JIAYOU JESS DARLING(:

Today i aimed to like finish maths n econs. N erm, i haven touch my econs yet, still going through maths. Slacking awhile now, mel baby is like doing her best to study maths, hahaha n she's now showcasing her creativity by drawing on my notes lol(: hahaha she's really really really bored! She just told me she drew e third page ard, at some rough notes de foolscap paper. LOL, i think i'm going home when my aunt comes n fetch me, maybe 11 plus 12 plus. (MEL IS SO GONNA MISS ME LOL)

Hm n Stella if u managed to read this, dun stress urself too much k! Dun get too bothered by those qns that u dunno how to do k! U'll be fine eventually like i said de(: Dun give up n dun get too stressed k!!

YISHAN! If u read this, i'm so gonna tell u! I NV FORGET U K LOL(: yea n we both noe its quite difficult to forget each other lol(: BUDDY(: takkaire!

Block test is on mon, n i'm practically slacking everyday. Re block test i think i'm coming! Hopefully not, bt its nt looking gd. Econs, Chem, Physics STILL UNTOUCHED. JESS JIU WO >< Mel n i are dying XD



This is life@
8:07 PM
Saturday, March 15, 2008





Just woke up n bathed like 1 hour ago.

Spent e night at jess house. N we're doing work. Like omg! Throughout e night! N i cabbed home at like 6 plus am today! Exciting. Its like e first time i stayed over at somebody's house i think. Family too strict n all, but i managed to convince them yesterday. So slept today morning after i reached home all e way till like 4:30pm! Jess u should be awake by now le bah? heh heh!

Holidays, no longer like one. More of torture. Though i haven do much till now. Its e think-too-much n do-too-slowly factor in me that coz me all my time. Like wat the hell thurs is ending soon. N yea, so what the hell am i doing here?

YILING! Omg u freaking idiot. Can't u just sit down n do ur work?

life is so sian, sian n more sian. jess n mel would agree!!! ROAR!



This is life@
5:52 PM
Thursday, March 13, 2008





Letting go, the last yet may be the best solution. If things continue this way, let's move on and keep those memories in our heart. Shall we? N i dun mean this will end our friendship, just end of our pain. I'll still be here, I hope as time goes by, e awkwardness will be washed away. And when we meet again, hopefully words will be our connector once more(: Love you, my dear friend.

Chatted for quite a long while with Jess on Sunday. Msn is a gd way of communicating i guess. I know there's someone with me, and in e same plight as i m. I just can't sit down n start work. Seems like even block test is nt making me start working. Tuesday is gonna be over soon too, econs extra lesson tmr. N when wednesday is near, i noe this week is gonna end very soon. Block test straight after that, we know we should get cracking, but we just can't. The sian feeling can't be understood by many, as they had been consistent worker and all. If anyone was to be blamed for all this today, it would be ourselves. Its nt that we dunno how serious things are, but just can't, can't, can't. Damn it. God knows why starting is so difficult. Just like what jess said, ultimate sianess. That's just it. N jess i've on my com!!! Hope i can off it soonXD

N baby mel(: Hope that both of u are feeling better today okay(: Jess, Mel, Shuxin, Dine n everyone(: Let's jiayou jiayou jiayou(: Hopefully, i'll be able to sit down n do work! u girls also yea!!! hopefully(: N mo(: thanks for that msg e other time(: u jiayou too yea(:



This is life@
8:40 PM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008





A very nice song of eg(: Dedicate to my dearest friends out there(:

一直到最后-energy

掌声响起 全世界也让我拥有
灯光熄灭 却是无尽的落漠
环顾身边 所有人都在我左右 
而这种感觉 能够继续多久

眼前出现一个巨大的浪头
挺不住的向后退 
站不住的被卷走
谁是真正的朋友

当一切经过 
还跟着你的是我
当你觉得什么都没有
别忘记我的心放在你手中
当泪水流过 还陪着你的是我
当所有(的)人都转过头
别忘记有我会挺你一直到最后


-when someone doesn't care about you the way you want him/her to, it doesn't mean that he/she doesn't care about you-

I care in my own way



This is life@
7:11 PM
Saturday, March 01, 2008