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haven been updating for 10 days already. suddenly feel e urge to come here!! WANTING i've UPDATED(:

anyway, supposed to be in full power for studying physics today, however i juz can't find e supplier of this 'power' so i ended up waking up at 12 plus though... n made plans to study, but after i had my lunch, i opened my physics file, n i straightaway go to the tv. I also dunno how to explain this action of mine. Maybe juz some resisting force acting on myself n i can't seem to make e applied force bigger than it. So i ended up slacking n slacking n slacking when i'm not supposed to. Well juz audied for like 1 n a 1/2 hr when i gave myself a period of 1/2hr... Ahh but i planned to study throughout the night anyway... If i want to pass physics i have to get like 50/100 so that my score will be pulled to 45 for overall.

u reap wat u sow... haiz... hope i'll get 1 h1 pass, gp is so unsure n so i have to study physics, super sian. But e thought of promo is ending makes mi happy though, n the episode of e 9-o-clock show on monday is gonna be nice(: so i'm kinda looking forward to monday.

okie(: after posting this, i promise, i'll study!!!

GO STUDY
GO STUDY
GO STUDY
GO STUDY
GO STUDY

if not i'm gonna be so dead, i want to promote, i have to do something. I dun want myself to cry n regret when result is back. JIAYOU MY DEAR FRIENDS(: ALL OF US GOT TO PROMOTE TOGETHER OKIE(:

[once in a lifetime, means there's no second chance, so i believe that u n me should grab it while we can]



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11:05 PM
♥Saturday, September 29, 2007





I JUZ WOKE UP FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!

WHERE M I GOING TO FIND SUMMARY FOR MR ONG TMR....

haiz... seem like i'm gonna burn midnight oil tonight le la...

i hav no idea why i'm not productive at all, tv, sleeping and blah blah blah... who can help mi, only myself, determination to study, n watever watever.

Merely 4 days more... haiz... praying for miracle is really nt very pratical la... But... i'm so darn desperate...

I WANT TO PROMOTE, n at the same time I'M REALLY NOT PUTTING IN EFFORT!!!

AHHHHH i'm so damn contradicting... so damn sickening!! HATE MYSELF FOR THAT!! haiz... i better get started somewhere.... printing papers is a way for mi to slack... when printing i'll go do other stuff... I'll not on my com if there are no paper... in a way it affected me la... but no matter wat is my excuse!!! Haiz, i'll get started!!!!

N I WANNA....
THANKS SHUXIN(: for e little slip of paper with so mani encouraging words on it(: Its hard for ppl like us to motivate ourselves la... heh so let us motivate each other!! Shuxin muz study yea(: hahaz we muz try to watch lesser tv, try to do more work n be more productive(: N i agree with u its easier said than to be done!! hahaha, let's chiong for e last few days bahz n hope somehow some strength will pull us to J2!!! It applies to all of us who are in e same boat now!!

SHUXIN, KAYAN, JESS, MEL (: Let's JIAYOU TGT!!!



This is life@
8:35 PM
♥Wednesday, September 19, 2007





Haven been updating throughout e holiday. Dun think that i'm so hardworking that i stopped myself from using e com. Conclusion for this one week holiday is unproductive. Haiz throughout all my past years of education my holidays had been unproductive. But i noe this yr is different, coz i really had a lot of catching up to do. I noe i nid to study, but i juz can't find e motivation to. What the hell is going on. I'm supposed to do pw reflection log now, already so last min le, yet i'm sitll not able to concentrate, i can't sit still n think, so i came here to take a breather.

I dunno what is going to happen to me. This yr had been such a bad yr. I had been unfocused, unable to stay attentive during lecture times, tutorials left undone. I dun even noe whether it is my problem or not. More or less i guess. I feel that there are suddenly a lot of problems to deal with. I'm worry for myself, yet i'm not doing anithing. Saying all these are bullshit, but yet they are e truth. I dunno when i'll come to my senses. Feel e serious need to, but...

I had harboured e thought of giving myself my more chance by retaining. But i noe if i got retained i'll disappoint a lot of ppl. 10/12 i'll be going on cruise, i hope that i'll be going there with a happy mood. I'll try my best really to try to stay focus for this 14 days... 2 weeks, i hope my luck stays with me. I noe its impractical to depend on it. But i've no choice. Haiz... I'll go back to pw, if not i can forgo my sleep tonight!



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2:04 AM
♥Monday, September 10, 2007