Your silhoutte'

Yesterday was my first ever meet-parent session throughout all my 10 yrs of education! Everything has a first time yea. Lolz... but i knew that this time i've disappoint my aunt, grandma n my mum. My grandma told me juz now, I've studied till this lvl, ask mi to dun give up now. If nt all will be wasted. I understand de. I promised Mr Ong that i'll bucked up, I'll really study, this time rd i better do wat i've said. Still got 2 months to promo! Jiayou everyone!!! 0721 will promote together de=) 一个也不少^^

This is life@

5:36 PM

♥Saturday, July 28, 2007

My 200th post! Decided to do something funnie! hahaz So i COUP this from shuxin!! hahaz okie i noe muz give credit to wanting coz she's done it b4 too! hahaz okie=)

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "I CAN'T DO THIS!!"YOU SAY?
kao jing-yu cheng qing
hahaz i see no link!
2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
kong qiu qian-lin yu zhong
hur?? still nt very into e situation hahaz
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
dao di duo jiu-huang yi da
hmmm...
4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
friends-rain
OMG!! the results are weird can!
5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
bu ai-tao zhe
nope nope, not real!
6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
wait for you-elliott yamin
ohhh i see something hahaz!
7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
bei pan-cao ge
WAH my eyes POPPED OUT when i see this!! Why everything like opposite?? depressed!!
8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
A moment like this-kelly clarkson
hahaz so random
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
fu huo-lin yu zhong + jin sha
LOL like i'm DEAD XD
10. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
Let me be the one-plus one
okie... weird enough hahaz
11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
When i'm gone-eminem
ERM?
12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Overprotected-britney spears
kinda sad i guess...
13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
I swear-all 4 on
Swear is wat kind of occupation?? hahaz funnie
14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
tian shi ji du de sheng huo-cao ge
hahaz that's sweet!
15. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word-blue
16. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
4 in the morning-gwen stefani
hahaz funnie=.=||
17. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
When you're gone-avril lavigne
ohhh this is linked =) finally hahaz quite sweet though i think!
18. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Áll or nothing-westlife
hahaz this is getting interesting! hahaz but its ending=.=||
19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Last flight out-plusone
20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Freedom-cao ge+xu wei lun
hmmm wat kind of secret is this=.=||
21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
love can build a bridge-westlife
=.=||
22. WHAT SONG WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU'RE POSTING?
zhuan shu tian shi-tank

hahaz SHUXIN i prefer ur ans!! more linked!XD hahaz so this is my 200th post.

As much as i want back the past, we had no choice but to carry on moving. Human really cannot do anything when the rival is time. I'm really sorry if i did anithing to annoy u again or... I juz want u to be well that's all. Let me do at least the smallest thing i can do for u! I cannot do much, but juz a little bit, for u.

This is life@

11:42 PM

♥Wednesday, July 25, 2007

My grandma said, "U always nv put ur stuff properly"

I'm going crazy. I always keep my stuff properly in my own rm, in my own cupboard, drawer, watsoever. She said i nv keep them properly. How m i suppose to noe that someone will juz go into my rm n open my drawer to take my stuff? Everything is my fault. She always side my sister. I cannot think properly now. I'm losing my rationale. Adults dun care abt her... I really dunno wat to do. I cannot think, i'm juz filled with too much anger now. Haiz...

This is life@

9:38 PM

♥Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Juz shouted at my sister again. Many n many times, whenever i found that my things are lost, i tried to comfort myself saying that maybe i misplaced it or watsoever, i always try my best to make sure i cannot find it then i'll go ask her abt it. But it always ended up the both of us having to quarrel again. Over things that are already so obvious, but she juz dun wanna admit it. She took them yet she dun wanna admit, still find all sorts of stupid reasons even a 3 yr old kid will not believe to tell mi that she dint take. How to believe her. I really cannot stand her anymore. I muz have done something real bad in my previous life. Its MY THINGS!!! What right has she to take them and still come n tell mi u cannot find ur problem lar. When already so OBVIOUS IS SHE TOOK IT DE!!! I'm trying hard to suppress my anger now.

When i asked her where is my things, she said u cannot find ur things is ur problem lar. When its not the first time they are lost, and the previous time it was found in her cupboard, i juz took it back n nv say anithing. This time rd, she left the box in my cupboard but she happily took e content. What the hell lar. She still can say, if u can find u find lar. I really dun understand why she still can be so overbearing when it was her who is in the wrong. I'm PISSED OFF by HER! I asked my grandma for my rm keys, no matter wat i said she dun wanna give mi. Ended up i keep finding my stuff to be missing. So as the days increased, all my impt stuff ended up with her. N i also dunno whether she used them to give to her friends or wat... I REALLY DUNNO WAT TO DO WITH HER.

I dun wanna be at home, i'm already very tired, n ended up finding things missing, lost. I only want her to give me back my stuff. Everything she took meant something to me. Why can't she juz understand that she have to respect my privacy, have to respect my feelings, n not juz take watever she wants n give to whoever she wants. N still can so li zhi qi zhuang de tell mi IF U CAN FIND THEN COME LAR! ALL SHE CAN SAY IS IF U BU SHUANG DA WO LA!! I really dun wanna be at home, i wanna take all MY belongings n juz leave.

This is life@

10:58 PM

♥Monday, July 23, 2007

Today is juz normal lesson. Like ani usual day. Then after that went to the briefing for e ny leaders' day. Building sandcastles!! Hahaz, it might sound silly, but seriously its kind of cool i think. From planning then designing, we muz do everything ourselves. Massive sand structures can be beautiful too=) So i'm kind of looking forward to this sat!

After the briefing went to co rm awhile. Hm, sometimes people can really get scary. I still think that people sometimes need to noe the extent or like how far they can go treating another person. Some people juz wun feel bad or something when what they've done seemed to be too much in others eyes. A gd and live example i see now is our conductor. After their practice(for the ppl involved in e conductor's performance), weijian, huifang, heidi, zi can(performers) + kel, jess n I went to serangoon central to eat dinner. Joke n joke through e night, so laughters are all ard. Then after that we finally left mac, went home sort of seperately. Reached home in time to catch the second half of switched!! Going to final episode on monday night i think!! Should be nice ending too=)

*If i were one of the stars above, n if u ever make a wish, I would rather fall and make ur wish come true=)*

This is life@

10:20 PM

♥Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Got back econs today... As expected, flunked it too. Looking at myself, i dunno what i hav become. I dunno what happened this yr... I really cannot concentrate... No matter how much i wanted to... I noe i can't afford to slack, i noe i dun want to get retained, I also noe i hav to work for wat i want, I'm trying to...

My mid yr, nth can be done now other than working hard for my promos... Yup i'll try my best.

When i'm at home, i get nothing at all. Yea, the only thing i get is getting sick of the quarrels... What is home all abt... I've no idea... My sister is forever going against me... Tried toking to her nicely, sometimes really cannot tahan... Then quarrel again, she juz cannot see where the fault lies... She dun give ppl e basic respect, she invades into ppl's piracy. I dunno how to handle her... I really dunno wat went wrong...

In sch i am still able to feel happiness when i've got a gd class, nice friends ard... Its another side when i'm at home, msges sometimes help mi a lot...

Hidden behind a cheerful face, are emotions that might be too much for me to bear. U noe me best... I really need ur support, tell mi jiayou, tell mi hang on, tell me dun give up... I really dunno how to carry on... I think i'm really very vulnerable now...

This is life@

8:13 PM

♥Tuesday, July 17, 2007

A thousand times of sorries cannot amend for the lost time!!! Haiz... Juz started to see things getting better le... But i always do things to make u unhappy again... I REALLY HATE MYSELF FOR THAT!!!I feel very gai si now XD I'm a bad bad girl=( haiz...

jiayou for all ur tests n projects my dear friend=) hope everything will be fine for u for me n for us=) love u<3

This is life@

11:42 PM

♥Monday, July 16, 2007

Shall update abt LTC now!! Actually wanna do that long long ago le... But like dun hav e mood... Thxs to shoe!! This camp really pushes u to ur limits. It trains my sense of urgency. Though part of it is like takan camp... Like those uniform group camp... But really learnt a lot a lot. N kayaking is a very nice exp really. So close to the sea, though it is hot at times, but when all e cold wind blow towards u its really a very nice feeling!!!

Sometimes the command given is really not very attainable... But we've no choice yea... I also dunno why... But i dun really think its a very good method to make ppl do military punishment n stuff... At least u muz noe who u're dealing with... Some cannot take it... N i think i might be considered as one of them... Emotionally maybe... Coz both subcamps dun get to see each other until like second last day... So i like nv see shuxin for a long long while... Then i really feel very excited n got a sense of shou xi de feeling when i see her in e camp... As though the other two days i'm spending it aboard then i suddenly see a familiar face that kind of feeling... Hahaz, then coincidentally we are the kitchen ICs for e same night!! Really is QIAO lor=) kind of cool yea! My grp mates not bad lar... Quite fun ppl also, then but still luckily got stella with me in e grp also!!! Its always nice to have ppl u noe in an unfamiliar place!! hahaz then the grp members are trying to organise outing now, with our facils. They are really nice ppl. Really learn quite a lot of da dao lis from them also=) So yup... Maybe ppl really need to think out of the box... View things from different perspectives!! U might juz see e light of enlightment all of a sudden!!!

Hmmm that's abt that i wanna say abt LTC le hehez=) Takkaire ppl=) JIAYOU FOR EVERYTHING!!! I WANT TO GET PROMOTED!!! I dun wanna say sayonara!! Mr ong can be real sacarstic. Haiz... but i only hav myself to blame.. Who ask me to be so slack during mid yr time... I can onli jiayou now le... seriously hope i still can make it... Yupps... byebye ppl=) Everyone muz JIAYOU!!!

This is life@

10:40 PM

♥

We haven been sitting down like this n chatting wif each other for a very very very long time le... Thanks for everything... Everything still feels so familiar... Its really nice to hear so much abt ur new life, had been wanting to noe all that since long long time ago. Everything juz feels so normal, juz like usual!! =D Other than thanks is still thanks! At first its jia jia herbal tea, then the doggy n the bear made me even more touched!!! Thank u for everything!!! I'm happy to be able to help u=) N i noe life is not easy for u now... Got a tight schedule, busy with a lot of things, projects, external activites, cca... Then always fall sick... Muz take good care of urself okie!!! U noe wat i'm gonna say de!! U noe u can do well, i hav faith in u too=D Jiayou all e way okie!!! U can do it de=D I also will jiayou de, let's jiayou together=)

*My dear friend, I love u a lot! Nth else need to be said!*

This is life@

10:33 PM

♥Sunday, July 15, 2007

I've found a nice song wif nice lyrics again!!! Its not very new i think! Found it while helping shuxin to find songs=) hahaz in a way help myself too!! THANK U SHUXIN!=D

My friend-plusone
We are standing at the crossroads
And now it´s time
For you to go your way
And me to go mine
I will pray the Lord
Will keep you safe
Until the day I see your face again

Chorus
My friend
We have been through so much
And you have been my Godsend
With your sure and steady love
My friend
You know I will be there
If you ever need
´Cause you´ve always
Been a friend to me

I may travel the world over
But one thing I know for sure
One day this road will lead me
Back ´round to your door
I will pray the Lord
Will keep you safe
Some bonds are just too strong
To break in the end

Chorus

Nothing will change the way
I feel about you
Not the miles or the years
Or the place this life takes me to

Chorus

This is life@

10:31 PM

♥Thursday, July 12, 2007

I'm in the midst of packing my bag for the LTC tmr. I packed so slowly today. Now feeling rather sleepy le... Hmmm came here to bid gdbye!! We'll be kayaking to palau ubin, pls pray for me that i make my way safely there n back!!! N anithing untowards were to happen to me, I have to say that i really love all e great ppl beside me. Family, friends, n a lot a lot more. N i found that i dun really hav a lot of shirts n shorts!! XD Trying hard to squeeze e no. of shirts n shorts out. But i think the only black shirt which is my nanyang orientation tee shirt is most probably wore by my sister!! Which is like... Muz get it washed... N the thing is she's not home yet!! SIAN!!!

Whatever it is, i'm juz here to say byebye to all!! Hahaz, n to wanting, i dun need to try to dun miss u de hahaz=.=|| hahaz okie but truth to be told, I'll miss my class, miss my class clique, miss all e fun n laughter. Though i'm still feeling quite bad abt the failure of maths, I'm a lot better already... Jiayou all for promos ppl^^ jiayou for u for mst's result also^^=)

BYE!

This is life@

12:46 AM

♥Friday, July 06, 2007

Today had pe, my arms are aching after volleyball, right now my left hand's muscle felt so tight... Like muscle cram like that, felt so crippled for my left hand now hahaz... Luckily right hand still not so bad...

Chem n maths paper were given back today. It was a disaster. When i noe chem mcq's result yesterday... I noe i'm dead! So yea... Things were expected, i flunk my chem. Then after pe is maths lesson. Mr Tam giving back maths paper... Waited quite awhile then i got mine. He said, "dint do well, try harder nxt time." N i saw my 39%... My goodness... The pain i felt was immediate. I noe i cannot compare O lvl am & em with H2 maths now... Actually i tot i can get an E or something.. which is like 45%... I nv expected anithing like that... Much as i dun want to... My tears dun obey me... They juz came as they like... Haiz... Thanks Shuxin!! I noe u tried hard to comfort me. Thanks yenleng n wanting, for helping mi to search out that 1 mark so that my grade become S instead of U now.. really thanks a lot!! Still gt everyone outta there who tried to comfort me. I really thank all of u... I think i'll need sometime to overcome this... Coz its maths... Maths... I'll work hard for promos de... I noe no pt brooding over this... Though i can't control myself now... I'll still try my very best... Econs, physics, gp n chinese not given back yet. I can imagine econs n physics how le... XD I really dun hav the face to give my aunt e result slip... I really dunno what's wrong wif me... I definitely hope that I'm able to pick myself up... I'm really not as strong... I'm starting to lose my way since the start of sch. I'm losing everything, i dunno what has gone wrong...

Sometimes i really feel very tire... I'm losing my energy bit by bit... Almost drained... Ling is losing her smiles, losing herself... Can u lend me ur hands? Can u guide me back? Give me the strength to carry on...

This is life@

10:03 PM

♥Wednesday, July 04, 2007

FIRST I WANNA TELL HUIXIN HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! SORRY FOR BEING LATE FOR 20MINS!! I DINT SEE THE CLOCK!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAL=) I NOE U'RE TOUCHED BY PPL WHO STILL RMBED UR BD! BUT DUN CRY TOO LONG HOR! HAHAZ ENJOY UR DAY TMR GAL=)) HAV FUN OKIE!!! HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!!=) I'm gonna owe u present again liao hahaz!! Paiseh!!

Today in the morning... Indeed i overslept... at 7:35am. When i'm suppose to meet sookie n hr at 7:15am... Then i cheong down can! reach ard 8am. Luckily they haven start anithing... Then go sign, then after that join my grp. N when i see down the list i saw Stella's name!!! OMG CAN!!! So lucki got familiar ppl there la!! But today she nt here!! With her in e same grp then i wun be so sianz le... Yup... Then 12pm the pre camp ended. Went to mpr to see the combined practice coz its ending le... Then went there to keep e chairs n stuff... Heard some bad things abt some GDJC's students. If there are more helpful ppl in this world, it will be much more efficient n beautiful. Though its totally based on own's thinking, seriously all ppl's character, no matter in wat aspect requires some changing... Myself too. No one is perfect though. Actually so what if u're the best?? When u're in the postition of best, it means that u have no rm for improvement already. But when u're not the best u can always seek to improve. N no one in this world out there is the best one or wat... So no matter where u stand in wherever u are, the thing is that u muz have a good character n attitude. This is true.

In this world, no matter faced with wat circumstances, pls dun ever give up urself. Even if the whole world were to forsake u, u cannot give up on urself. It is only when u believe in urself then ppl will also believe in u, so the way ppl see u is what u show to others. But for everyone outta there i'm sure... There will be ppl ard u who can help u to stand up when u fall, u've gt to stand up on ur own after their support. I wish i can be there for the one i wanna be there for... Everything can be easily said, it'll be a different story when its going to be put into actions.

I wish i can be there, giving u encouragement, telling u not to give up. I wanna assured u that u definitely can do it. Will i have the chance? I'm sure u can understand... Though it had been a long long time... Most will agree that in this life u dun always find friends who treat u with sincerity n lots more factors. I told myself, when i've found this special n hard-to-come-by friend i'll cherish her for sure. Coz a best friend like that is really really so hard to come by. People always say u'll noe the true value of a best friend only when u've lost her. I dun want to lose u right from the start coz i already knew ur importance in my life... U've make a difference in my life!!! I really thank u for that! Heaven always make a fool of ppl... When everything seems so okie... something will happen... haiz... Its true to say ren(2) suan(4) bu(4) ru(2) tian(1) suan(4)... I nv expect this to be so long... Nv expect it to be so bad... At this pt of time, when everything is so different, i am sure that i definitely need u! Really need u...

This is life@

12:28 AM

♥Sunday, July 01, 2007