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Life had been the same for mi again. School and home again. Though occasionally will go out wif ky,sx,wt and yl and maybe the guys, i guess days wun be so relax like that animore. I can sense that life is getting more and more hectic, busy le. PW is enouf to kill mi i guess... JC life kind of suks, but strictly for the curriculum part onli. Friends, teachers ard and cca are really nice!

Yea, beatty SYF coming le, hope they'll get a silver this time rd. Help us to get back wat we've failed to obtain, jiayou bahz co. No matter whether i'm going back to support u all or the last few practices i'll be there anot, i noe u guys will do well! Beatty, is a place for mi, full of memories, no matter gd all bad, all is there. Its the place i noe u*, all becoz of u, life had been really great. U had been a great friend. And u always will be my bestest friend, in my heart u're always there.
No matter how long, i wait till things get better for us, i hope by then u'll be able to see into my eyes n no more avoiding. Friday going back to co, i end so late can't go back, even if i go back also too late liao, u'll be gone by then. Iszit predestined so that i can't go back?? haiz... nvm... hav fun.

Continue to smile and joke all u can bahz! Its the best to see ur laughter=) I noe u're happy, i'll be happy too.



This is life@
10:06 PM
♥Wednesday, March 28, 2007





It seemed like only awhile ago when i saw my senior's msn nick as I'm gonna eat up the big 'O'. Now not onli i had finished my Os and were already in JC. My senior's msn nick now is gambatte, obviously for her A lvl. Time passes so fast and unknowingly.

Within this time frame, a lot of things can happen. Even things that u've not expected to happen happened. Its already in mid-march now already, as april is coming our way, i wish that all will be well for the ppl ard mi and myself. I'll remember to hold on to the golden moments and forget everything about forever. I will not waste ani moment after sch life really start. Right now, i still hav a little little honeymoon period for myself. A very short period, of course, and my weekend will be taken up by co camp. Seems like i really hav to bring my work there... lolz..

I've learn to cherish and treasure beautiful moments and times. It might seemed like an everyday life at first, and when those times turn into memories, it can't happen again in ur life... let alone everyday life... So, no matter wat moment, i'll remember everything that are so precious, seriously they are all in my mind. They come so naturally. N i'm so sure that they will not be forgotten. Coz they've all became one and only. So precious and real yet nv gonna happen again.

I'm trying to be optimistic, trying to find it back... Who says sagi recovers fast when hurt?? all load of crap! Its not the rate of recovering that matters, its how impt u view the person/friendship/relationship. The more impt the person is to u, the longer u need... It applies to all ppl bahz! Getting over is nv easy... Some ppl juz does not have the ability to heal. I still dunno which category i belong too... Time will make everything blender? Time will wash away ur pain? Uh hur... shall see... I juz hope things will not be too bad as time goes by!

I see time passing by everyday... But why does it seems to be even stronger? Why do I feel so sad? I'm trying to be happier... trying to feel the happiness... I do feel it at times, but juz when i seemed to touch it at the edge, it slips away. Happiness muz come from inside of the heart, no matter how hard i try to feel, its of no use.

Life goes on? It does, but hurt occurs too, until it becomes a painless scar.



This is life@
10:41 PM
♥Wednesday, March 21, 2007





Some poems i've found, right now quite close to my heart!

I Can See The Pain
by Nikki
I still see your face in my dreams
It hurts and it doesn't help at all
I still want you in my life as crazy as that seems
I want you to catch me when I fall
I still remember the first time we met
There was something so different about you
Your friendship was something I wanted to get
That smile when you said hi to me was so new
Out of no where you called me on the phone
I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
You were so new, so crazy and unknown
I just knew that our friendship would never sever
Two years and we are barely holding it together
What happened to the way this all used to be
I never wanted you out of my like ever
I sat there for a long time pretending not to see
We decided to go out and make it all all right
It didn't work out of course we knew it couldn't
We couldn't even really stand each others sight
It shouldn't end this way but it did and I shouldn't
I miss you and everything you were to me
Ten years from now we will look back on it all
We will be older and finally be able to see
That love will stand the test of time and never fall

Lost And Found
by Johnny
There is a storm in my heart
It tears my inside apart
I am bleeding and I am hurt
Like a wingless little bird
Then it turns dark
And for a moment I see
The pain that was inside of me
And on a journey I embark
In search of answers
In search of truth
In search of understanding
In search of you
My guiding star in darkness
Like a little stream in the desert
Everything about you seems flawless
But that is what causes the hurt
Your perfect features do not belong to me
You do not deserve my chains
You need to live and see
What it means to be free
So spread your wings and fly away
For I can not fulfill your dream
But if you should fall one day
I'll guide you and be that little stream
So go and discover it all
And know that wherever you go
Whatever you do and might feel
The only thing you need to do is call

Flowers
by H. Barnes
It may not be the same
But some things never change
I feel it and I trust it
I still believe in forever
Because that's what my heart knows
Memories are the dew drops on our petals
That re-open the buds that have closed
Flowers wilt as seasons change
Though they grow a little more with rain
The sun will shine when in need,
And left behind, a precious seed.



This is life@
1:34 PM
♥Sunday, March 18, 2007





what does letting go means?

I had absolutely no idea... hurtful words, broken heart.... does letting go involve all these?? or after u let go u'll feel happy? feel released? everyone will feel differently bahz? i dunno... i'm blur and totally lost... what should i do?? what happen??

I need somewhere to let out all inside mi... ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FEEL LIKE SHOUTING OUT, but i've no voice! i'm tire... i see no light ahead... I need to think... but i can't make my brain work... uh hur?? i dunno i dunno... =( what u want mi to do??



This is life@
9:38 PM
♥Saturday, March 17, 2007





Hmm... heard a song from shuxin's blog!! nice nice nice!! n juz want i wanna say to u!

I'll REMEMBER U!
It has been so long
Since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
Hoping they will never change
Cuz what we had
Can't be replaced
Don't let our memories fade away
Keep me in your heart for always
You made me believe
I can do almost anything
Stood there by me
Through the tears
Through everything
I'll remember you
And baby that's forever true
You're the one
I'll always miss
Never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you
No matter what you're goin' through
In my heart you'll always be
Forever baby I'll remember you
I'll promise you I won't forget
The times we shared
The tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back
To meet again someday
Even though we go separate ways
You made me believe
That I could do almost anything
You stood right by me
Through the tears through everything
If the day should come when you need someone
You know that I'll follow
I will be there
Don't ever let there be a doubt in your mind
Cuz I'll remember
Forever baby
I'll remember you



This is life@
6:55 PM
♥Monday, March 12, 2007





Hmm... heaven been updating my blog for a long long while... well i'm kind of no mood n low this period, had been indulging myself in my own audition world... had been neglecting my work... i agree... life has changed indeed without ppl i was so used to... like suan...

Things get depressing when ppl had to adapt to new life n stuff... actually i can adapt to them well... juz that something when someone impt was no longer here.... i couldn't be like myself though i'm still myself... dun get wat i'm toking abt myself... lolz... When i was occupied with other stuff, i'll at least not think too much... lolz

kk... try nt to sound so emo... My new class are a great bunch of ppl!! definitely!! Personally i like this class a lot!! hope that ny wun do a major reshuffle and cause e shonarians to be dispersed!! PRAY HARD PEEPS THAT WE'LL STAY TOGETHER AS A CT!! Tmr ct outing right? hohoz... will be fun i bet!

N orientation2 juz over on friday night... well kind of boring actually compared to orientation 1!! it was rumoured that onli 30% of e first intakers stayed in NY! WELL, i heard 75%... dunno which one is true... aniwae.... i juz hope our class will still be wif the same members! though there'll be new members definitely!! Suan, Shimin, Crystal n a lot more had already left us=(

Actually i hav nth much to do... juz wanna catch up wif my work again... and i hope i'll be able to leave my depress mood... but i noe... its still hard right at this point of time... Will life get better? I shall see....



This is life@
6:34 PM
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