hahaz.... finally ... my 100th post.... hahaz aniwae.. that's not the main point today la.. hahaz... hmmm... friday.... the onli day where i got to blog freely... wif no worries of time constrain... feeling of no restriction is juz so nice and calm and peaceful... how i hope life will be like that every day.... iszit possible?? not really now bahz... everyday also got new things.... got new topics to absorb in... and i dunno how far my brain could go ani further... but i noe my brain will not say give up easily de...
today after co... chat from 7:05pm to 8:10pm wif lay and sookie!! its abit late... but the venue we are chatting is so windy... and i feel so nice sitting there.... being in the breeze.... it make mi feel so relax.... (though hair abit messy) i hope i will be in that kind of weather everyday... that will be so nice.... chatting and chatting.... time pass so fast.... and we muz go home le... as we notice that the sky turns from navy blue, to a slightly darker blue... and later completely darkness... we knew its time to go... hahaz....
my air-cons are spoilTED!!! and i now finally understand the real meaning of warm.... omg... cannot stand life without air con man... i think i m getting so dependent on it le... alamak!!! so hot so hot... muz get cold water to wash away the hotness=,= can someone lend mi ur aircon for awhile... so unbearable... ARHHHH!!! i will die not becoz of stress now... because i m too hot... die of excess heat sia... hahaz...
reading my book... chatting wif sookie and laylay again... in msn now... hahaz... then finding phrases... words and their meanings... i m determined to widen my vocabulary, regardless it is chinese or english... both are essential to mi!!! so ppl wish mi luck... and off i go now.... buaiz buaiz!!!
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9:54 PM
♥Friday, February 24, 2006
whenever i m here to post... it meant that either i had finish all my work or i m slacking... and right now... i believe i m slacking because i m suppose to use this time to study for my geo test and physics test coming up on wed and thurs... and what m i doing here!!! haiz... nvm.. sometimes juz nid to take a break!!
haiz... i noe a lot of cca already stepped down le... but it juz happened that our cca heaven yet... can u be more patient.... u say u dun wanna stress mi... but here u are keep mentioning... and i dun wanna avoid the problem... i really dun wan... but wat can i ans u?? i had told u wat i m suppose to say right.... dun ask mi animore le... i dunno anithing... and even if right now we stepped down immediately u are still not excused for the cca... u got it?? (juz some personal thingy....)
physics tys is placed in front of me.... i hoped i had the energy to lift up my pen and start doing... really... but i dun hav... i juz dun feel like doing anithing right now... or maybe i should do my chinese compo.. then i can concentrate on studying tomolo? i should finish all homework first.... perhaps... sch life is as boring as usual... and nothing interesting is happening... that's why i look forward for thurs and fri to come.... because got chinese orchestra... it is something that can destress mi.... i juz dunno why ppl wanna use cca to tie themself down when they can enjoy... if u already not devoted to ur cca why u choose it at first manz..... juz get something u like... dun choose for the sake of choosing... that's wat i really thinking and this applies to all ppl.... listening to songs are a gd way to calm down ur emotions too... so sometimes juz put down ur pen and let go of ur knowledge for that moment... sit down... and really do something u wanna do... or in this world a lot of death will be caused by stress.... overwork... things like that yar.... dun wanna see this happening to urself? then let urself rest!!
Studies, family, friendship!! i see problem in all three most important things at this stage of life... friends... i really dun understand animore... wat do u really want... can u tell mi... ignoring and ignoring.... u make mi lose all my courage to go and tok to u... so is this really wat u want now... i had no energy to think abt all my problem wif u le.... are friends suppose to be like that....
studies... another crucial thing... i will juz do watever i can... and my very best bahz.. wat else can i do....
family.... i dun give a damn animore... let them juz be wat they wanna be... i dun care.... i juz wanna be alone... isolated in my own world... awareness......... i juz dun wanna this word to be in my dictionary now...
my physics tys juz told mi i m neglecting it... so i m going back to it... physics jia you!! gogogo.... if u believe u can do it... u definately can!! sookie, suansuan, huixin, meichiee, lay, dia and ...... watever.... i believe we all can do it... if u all believe in urself... believe in ur books!! u will hav no problem attaining wat u want.... GOGOGO!!!!
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9:36 PM
♥Monday, February 20, 2006
Sometimes.... when ur friend nid ur help... it simply juz means she wants u to sit down quietly and listen to her... be a listener... i had learnt that today.... and sometimes... being a dustbin to let ppl throw their watever in... is a gd way... to help ur friends to solve their problems... no matter wat u say they cannot abosrbed in aniwae... so dun tok... listen!!
hmmm today went back sch.... its a sunday!! wondering why?? actually 4e1 and 4e2 went back to sch... to help out at the RC... dunno wat they doing... but definately got something to do wif mosquitoes la... hav fun at the game stall... saw a lot of ppl... get to noe a lot of characters.... learnt a lot of things not onli on the surface... but wat is running deep inside the surface... i still think that young generation nowadays really are getting more out of hand... and bad to worst definately... i really dare not forseen wat will happen to the world in the future wif this kind of ppl ard manz......
aniwae... mi and sookie did our job le... we make sure that the gong go there safely and return back in one piece.... so now no matter wat i say makes no sense... because now ppl care more abt ending than the process... hahaz... yapz... i go do homework le... buaiz buaiz
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8:02 PM
♥Sunday, February 19, 2006
Though a failure in love I am,
But gd friends reached out their hand, Telling me, “ I noe u can.”
“Take my hand n UP u stand.”
A handful of them I adore most,
To my heart they live so close…
Adoring they are just like roses..
Can’t do without, like medical doses.
But as we grow, we all change,
So one rose fell out of the range.
As it fell,the thorns pierced into my heart,
The cut was deep n really hard.
Then I realized how far we were, apart.
She told me, “like this, is what I am!
I don't wana give a d*amn !!!”
and these words drowned me like quicksand...
Coz only seeing her own stand,
How I feel, she won’t wana understand.
Love n friends, these two gems,
To go on, I feel weak without them.
Hope that fallen rose,one day,
will fall back in place,
n Let me, once again,
see its glamorous grace.
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7:34 PM
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Sec 4 life is nv easy... i had already expected it... and i guess it will be much more tiresome than wat i had expected arh... i noe i muz work on my language now.... hmm english especially... fri juz had a chinese test.... not difficult and not easy... in a sense that the paper is do-able... but is not easy to score... hmmm today went out wif jeremy and alicia lee... supposed to meet joyce in the library arh.... though in the end we did meet her... but i went off soon... to meet sookhan and lisuan at their tuition centre... then we went ard walking... its really gd to hav a walk outside sometimes.... one will feel less stressful and happier bahz?
My expected pts for my o lvl is 12... hope i will ever obtain it.... jia you le... hmm... i believe that how much hard work u hav put in... u will get back the same amount of harvest... so i m going to work ... very very hard.... juz for this o lvl.... ping le!!! ppl jia you too!!
hmmm... co co co co.... still as busy as before? especially the sec 1s came in already... i guess this batch of sec 1s got real interest in co... hope their passion will not go off and will continue to grow bahz... i bought kelly's album on friday!! i think its nice lehz.... serious speaking... much better than weilian... at least most of her songs are new except for one which is mei li ben nu ren!!! now waiting for junyang album arh....
i go read storyboook le... ohohoho.... language!! gogogo!!! yapyapyap!!! still owe mrs tan a lot a lot a lot of homework... dunno how to describe... alamak!!! dun feel like doing still.... i m a bad gal!! but dunno why... i can't seem to bring myself to concentrate on doing her work.... haiz.. dunno wat to say abt myself too.... so disappointed in myself... i say i wanna work hard.... but i will get lazy!!! I DUNNO WHY!!! SOMEONE HELP ARH!!!!!
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9:27 PM
♥Saturday, February 18, 2006
juz broke up wif him this afternoon... and quite peaceful break up bahz... at least that's wat i feel... and... hope that both of us will be fine after awhile bahz... yapz... valentine's day is coming... every couple muz treasure and cherish each other... yapz... that's a form of happiness and not every ppl can get it... so it is important to TREASURE!!! juz couldn't find the right word aniwae... yapz... hope that u ppl understand wat i meant....
haiz... homework undone, project undone... i really cannot imagine wat will happen if i continue slacking haiz... nxt week going to hav chinese test... and i really hope my A1 for my chinese will come back to mi... i will really do watever i can... to get it back... jia you jia you!! eng if i can maintain as b3.. i will be as grateful as i could be... at least b3... pls... the chem test on tues... i hope i can score... history test and physics test i hope i can pass arh!!! then am test... i hope at least can hav 30/40.... still got ss... i noe i sure fail liao... i go totally out of pt.. hmm geo test heaven give back... hoho... so i juz leave everything to fate now... since i could already do nth...
suddenly find that poems are very nice... especially those ryhming poems... now i shall juz focus on my olvl and think of nth else... yapz... hope that everyone can pass well... for olvl... yapz.. and go to ur ideal sch... no matter jc or poly.... watever... yapz... JIA YOU BAH!!!
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12:42 AM
♥Sunday, February 12, 2006
Today is the release of O lvl results!! and as much as i hav expected... huiyi though did not top this time... but still did very well... get second!! no bs loz.. all As!!! if i can be like that... things will be so nice... but its not easy... really not easy.. and i noe i will nid to do a lot of things on my part... STUDY HARD!!! wat else can i do... sometimes i really feel like taking a break... a very very long break.... i nid to cool my engine... or it will breakdown one day....
listening to songs are really a gd form of relaxation.... reading books too... should take a break this weekend... but still muz study... cannot break totally... still got homework!! omg... i owe mrs tan super lots of things!!! spontaneous writing nv hand in, compo nv hand in... watever homework i also nv hand in.. and very funnie... i will onli not hand in homework when it comes to english.. and i dunno why!!!
When i m in the hall today.... i juz feel very heavy all of a sudden... especially when ms liza say pure geo 100% passes... i dunno wat can i react... iszit really possible for mi to get at least an A2 for it?? can it surpass my combined humans?? guess muz really suddenly damn hard for mi to obtain that... and i m very worried abt my eng lo... i m afraid that my eng cannot make it... wif mrs tan as my eng teacher somemore... whole day onli noe how to nag!! haiz...
I m looking forward to that day when i m stepping down from council!!!! it symbolises a kind of relief... i m throwing some of my burden into the sea when i step down... but we are now promoted to watever shit mentors.... haiz... why can't i juz get myself out of all these.... its really tiring sometimes....
Today sookie and me tried to tok to the co members... they are tire.... they are stress up... i can really understand... but i dun understand why muz they bring their frustrations into co when they can enjoy and destress themselves....haiz.... there are really a loads of things i cannot explain though.... sec4 life... starting of another new chpt..... ending of secondary sch life... CO nxt yr syf better JIA YOU!!! we will be back!! hoho!! but as audience this time... it is so much easier to be an audience than a performer hahz...
Watever things happen... i will juz face and solve it... no use running away... facing and solving is still the words... new challenges will always come by ur way... life is about challenges!! i m so sleepy now... mi go sleep le!! its really tiring to be studying non-stop... break time now!! gd nitez=)
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9:58 PM
♥Friday, February 10, 2006
HOHO!! happy chinese new yr to everybody... though its kind of late now... but nvm... its better to be late then nv!! yapz... sch has resume, and tests is also resuming... let's see wat i hav got on my list!!
Tues: Chemistry Test
Wed: History and Physics Test
Thurs: A maths Test
Fri: SS test
My life is filled with tests and tests... bt nvm... coz last yr already try it before... so kinda numb le!! but worst.... i got no time to study....T_T watch again!!
Mon: Council Meeting
Tues: Council Metting
Wed: Remedial
Thurs: CO
Fri: CO
wow.... i got a lot of things to complete!! and muz study everything b4 hand!! omg omg.... and i onli got today and tomolo!! all those meetings and remedials will cause my study time to be gone... especially the tues one.... coz i got two tests on wed... going to get heavier le.... juz hope after stepping down wun hav all this things!!
one can grow up in a certain CORRECT amount of stress, one also can go mad as stress are too much to cope wif... everyone has different capacity of containing their stress... and i m almost filled up... stress will get overflow one day!! i muz go and install a drainage system for all that...
post some pictures up here hahaz... these are pictures taken during the chinese new yr holidays... my aunt help mi to straighten my hair... and i think nxt time i should go and make my hair straight... coz i suppose it looks nicer... anione wanna give ani commentS? hhaz... i will be grateful!!
mi wif my cousin!
Tues: Chemistry Test
Wed: History and Physics Test
Thurs: A maths Test
Fri: SS test
My life is filled with tests and tests... bt nvm... coz last yr already try it before... so kinda numb le!! but worst.... i got no time to study....T_T watch again!!
Mon: Council Meeting
Tues: Council Metting
Wed: Remedial
Thurs: CO
Fri: CO
wow.... i got a lot of things to complete!! and muz study everything b4 hand!! omg omg.... and i onli got today and tomolo!! all those meetings and remedials will cause my study time to be gone... especially the tues one.... coz i got two tests on wed... going to get heavier le.... juz hope after stepping down wun hav all this things!!
one can grow up in a certain CORRECT amount of stress, one also can go mad as stress are too much to cope wif... everyone has different capacity of containing their stress... and i m almost filled up... stress will get overflow one day!! i muz go and install a drainage system for all that...
post some pictures up here hahaz... these are pictures taken during the chinese new yr holidays... my aunt help mi to straighten my hair... and i think nxt time i should go and make my hair straight... coz i suppose it looks nicer... anione wanna give ani commentS? hhaz... i will be grateful!!
mi wif my cousin!
This is life@
12:31 PM
♥Saturday, February 04, 2006