Your silhoutte'

Life is so boring after exams...... i got totally no aims at home.... so sianz.... i dunno wat to do but to stick to my computer... my life is now filled wif onli my com and my yang qin at home... hmmmz.... tomolo nid to go back to sch... haiz... so sianz... like i got no holiday..... i got 8 days more to prepare for my solo piece!! 8 days.... sounds so short.... hope i realli wun get stage fright that day....

Hmmmz...... Listening to zaizai's album now.... his new album... but is japan version de..... though the songs hav eng title... but are in chinese... hahaz.... so i m still able to understand arh... hoho!! i tot he will nv release new album le.... but the songs like almost the same one... dunno why japan now then hav... so sad arh.... hmmmz.... planning to do a lot of things during the holiday.... got to go back sch quite a no. of times too.... council camp is now changed to 23-25 Nov!! i m so happy... hope that no more changes will occur le... can go council camp hoho... so happy!! Juz wanna hav fun=)

Today i recorded my solo piece when i playing... hmmm... the effect a little different when i heard it being recorded... i nv think that i can play these kinda songs one day too.... the song is so fast..... then even the recorder cannot record properly... hahaz... funnie arh... hmmm.... juz hope this performance will juz go on smoothly bahz....

My eyes are closing..... but i m trying to keep it open... dun feel like sleeping so early... my house now onli left my sister and me arh.... heaven iron my skirt arh!! wahhhhh.... laziness!! hooooo... wondering why i m so lazy hoho.... nxt time muz try and see got pics to put anot... then the blog wun seem so wordy.... sometimes i see liao also sianz... hahaz.... bb.... this is the end of my post today arh..... take ur time to read!! hahaz... not much things happening recently....

[life is as simple as eating, drinking, playing and being happy]
[ppl nid to change and adapt wif the changing environment, this is important arh...]
[juz a smile can make someone happy the whole day]
[one nid to get out of their depression mood A.S.A.P, if it is unhappy... no point staying in there for long right?? :)]
[when u think of someone whenever u are free, when u wanna be wif him, when u juz want him but no one else, u are 99.999999.....% in love him that someone]
[[[that's how i m feeling now:)

This is life@

10:18 PM

♥Sunday, October 30, 2005

happy 5th month anniversary dear** finalli 5 months le... had been counting down since a few days ago arh.. hoho... think i m kinda crazy bahz... trapped in ur net.... i cannot go aniwhere arh.... haiz.... is this a gd or bad thing? definately hope that it is gd arh=)

aiyayaya..... today almost gone through wif lao shi the whole song of my solo piece liao arh... left 2 weeks for mi to piang liao arh.... scare scare arh... haiz.. aniwae... realli hope i can do it!! Muz train my self-confident then can!

tomolo finalli last day of sch le... as days past by... it meant that my sec three life is getting shorter also le.... and tomolo will mark the end of my sec three life... (though not officially sec 4 yet) its raining very very heavily outside down... and as i m typing each letter down... i can hear the loud thunder arh... so scary... scare my com will juz black out at ani moment as the lightning strikes... hoho....

i realli feel that time juz passes by so fast... even sometimes faster than lightning arh.... haiz... i reali dun wish to go to sec4.... i dun wanna feel the tremendous pressure on mi... i dun wanna take o lvl... but do i hav a choice... i cannot even choose... i guess i juz hav to proceed wif time arh.... haiz.... i m going to 15 arh... still sound so young... but yet so old... hahaz.. also dunno wat i toking abt.... haiz... English is realli one of my troubles... i realli hope i can do well in English... someone pls help!! teach mi how to do well in English arh... haiz.... Joining E2 isn't a wrong decision... for i m sure that my English did maintain its standard... at least its normal in my class... and my "gang" communicate in English arh... so its not so bad bahz....

hahaz.. dun feel like sleeping now though the weather is nice for sleeping... writing testi for my beloved jiejie also(moh shi qing)..... she so ma fan hoho... hope she sees this hoho!! jking arh jiejie!! no offence!! suaning u hav become part of my life... Anyway... not feeling very well today arh.. until now my stomach still not very well arh.. and now abit feverish liao!! dunno wat's wrong wif mi also!! hoho..... but i die also will go sch tomolo de!! coz tomolo last day liao arh!!

now mi go and d/l songs liao!! bb ppl!! update u guys tomolo if possible!! hehez... buaiz buaiz!! hope tomolo will be better day!!!

[everyone pins for a gd future, but u nid to fight for it urself]
[u nid to strive for better, nid to hav the right attitude to survive in this society]
[friends will not be wif yar forever!! but dun lose contact wif them arh!!]
[love is all that i can give to u*, love is more than juz a game for two]
[I juz love u.... without any reason]

special msg to the special u*:
hmmmz..... 5 months today arh... realli hope this will go on and on and on like a cycle... nth will ever stop going round.... nid yar by my side and hope u always do arh!! =)

This is life@

9:42 PM

♥Thursday, October 27, 2005

Hmmz... time flies arh... bu zhi bu jue already going to 27 le.... tomolo is 27/10... five months le... i m happy and contented to hav him* i will cherish him de!! Tomolo got co also... hmmmz... time to let lao shi listen to my solo piece le... juz tok over the phone wif lay arh... haiz.. she so hardworking arh... i think mi in a way very slack arh.... dint practice much though... hope tomolo wun die arh... i realli scare arh!! we are left wif less than 2 weeks time!!

Lay arh muz jia you k!!! mi will also jia you de!! hoho... let's piang together to make this concert a success... of coz not onli u and mi... still got all the co members arh!! then zhong ruan qi zhou, gu zheng du zhou, and cello qi zhou also muz jia you jia you!!

Lao Shi will be late tomolo arh... hmmmz.... so i hav extra time to practice hoho... hope so arh... aniwae.... the dates for council camp might be changed arh... i m holding on the a glimpse of hope already.. hope it will be another disappointment again!! i realli longed to go to council camp... but 14, 15 and 16 nov mi got co camp.... which is a muz to attend arh... i dun even noe how to go loz... mr sin so cruel!! HUMPH!!

its late now arh... cannot write much le.. still nid to help mi jiejie write testi!!! later she scold mi againT_T o ya!! SHIQING JIEJIE!!! i promised u to say out in my blog that I LOVE U righT?? hehez.. mi sounded so les arh... ehhhz... goosebumps!!! u better see this msg.. or i will kill u!!! get mi?? hehez... gd nitez ppl!! gotta go!!

[learn to cherish ur loved ones....]
[i hope we can last forever arh....]
[though bu zai hu tian chang di jiu, zhi zai hu cheng jing yong you]
[when u noe its time to pull up ur socks... juz reach down and pull it, dun let laziness be the excuse]

This is life@

10:08 PM

♥Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Why that title?? actually its a sudden thought that came to my mind... at this young age... when teenagers go dating it is called puppy love! but normally it wun last but there are also exception cases. Sometimes i realli do wonder whether young people like us really have the right mindset to so called "dating"... and do they treat it seriously.... the foundation of their love is not there.... and that's why its fragile... Do young ppl like us noe what are we exactly feeling?? does we noe wat love realli is?? some ppl do... its a feeling that is not able to describe... But ppl sometimes hav a gf/bf juz for the sake of having them... but do they realli like the person?? they dun understand it hurts for the other person.....

Of coz i hope none of the above will happen to myself... i juz had this sudden feelings to write the above down... sometimes i realli do wonder.... aniwae... today i went to jeremy hse, wif joyce, gerlynn, alicia ang, hanrong and kitty.... we went there to do our project... the NUS ppl wanna us to create games for those kids in Cambodia to play wif arh... hmmm... we heaven finish most of it..... but we did touch on somethings.. hope we will be able to finish it tomolo arh... 8:30am to 12:30pm.. do hope we get breaks in between too.. hope tat they wun starve usT_T i get hungry easily... and i dun take breakfast arh... hehez....

SchooL is coming to an end orhz.. hehez... holidays are approaching aarh... but this time i cannot put myself in holiday mode liao... muz realli work hard and prepare for nxt yr's reassesment for my physics and chem... do realli hope i dun nid to drop them!!! Dia and May... hope they will get promoted also arh.. think they can do it bahz... they sometimes realli dunno how to distinguish wat is the difference between wanna compare marks and concerning them... haiz... friends be till like that... i feel so damn shi bai arh.... aniwae... juz hope that they will be juz fine arh... gotta go now... hehez...

[when u feel that lov is coming, make sure it is ur true feeling]
[be true to yourself, and u wun hurt anione]
[anibody had the chance to be loved and to love, it is juz the time that makes the difference]
[dun rush into a relationship, it will come one day]
[when in deciding something, especially in whether wanna go into a relationship, it is better not to be indecisive, coz when u are like that, it means u are not sure of your feelings]
[ones nid to be enlighted, do ask ppl for advices sometimes....]
[one cannot solve every problem himself/herself]
[ppl do nid helps sometime]

SpeCial MsG to yaO jiejie:(hope u see this)
EveRything can be solved and will be solved one day, time will wash away everything, juz allow yourself to have more space to breathe, u nid someone to talk to, then tok to that someone... dun trouble yourself by keeping everything to urself. Cherish the one u lov and u noe u had tried ur best! Dun ever do ani silly things k... there are still ppl who cares abt u!! LoAds of ppl are outta there k? TakKaiRe anD be HapPy AlwAys, CHeeRs=)

This is life@

7:25 PM

♥Monday, October 24, 2005

Haiz.... very very disappointed wif my sci..... i also dunno how to score in these subjects.. my science had always been the lousiest... since P3..... i realli hope i can do well in sci... at least a B3 mahz... haiz... my L1R5 abt 18 and my sci took up 1/3 of my L1R5... this is like.... so sad loz..... tomolo we will be checking all our marks le... haiz.. quite prepared for it anyway..... juz hope that i dint fail any.... my chem is the most worrying subject now as i failed my ca2....

Anyway, my maths this time rd got better grades than other subjects.... A maths got A1 and E maths got A2... That's the only two subjects that I got As.... I nv expected my maths to be my best subject... i always thought that my chinese is the strongest... but ever since the paper is set by Ms TTL i lost hope... totally.... haiz.... Chinese is no longer my outstanding subject... no longer the subject that i can be proud of.... this is so not me.....

I m going to start working on my Eng.... my Eng and Chi both got B3 now... and normally this is impossible.... so my sec 3 life is like everything turns out to be different from wat i expected... like for my combined humanities... i expected myself to do better in SS this time... but i did better in History....

I m going to hang on for my pure sciences.... until nxt yr january after the reassesment marks come out..... i think i will cheong my tys for this holiday... i realli muz buck up liao.... i cannot afford to lose pure sciences... i wanna go sci stream... i wanna study C maths and F maths.... i muz jia you!! ppl outta there... pls jia you for mi!!

Aniwae.... CO is getting better i think... the members are also getting better... this is a gd omen... i love CO... so i hope the members will cooperate wif us to make CO better!! 2007 muz at least get silver... hmmz... i nid to think of strategies to let members willing to practice sia.... even my two little juniors loz... they nid to buck up le... Yang Qin is progressing so slowly.. i think i dint teach them well enouf arh... shall put more effort in them.... Let's make music better=)
Its late now orhz... mi gotta go... play a few games and to bed... orhz ya.... still nid to do A maths bonomials... hehez... jia you ppl!

[When life is not what u expected to be, you will hav to adapt to the new style of life]
[When you wanna do something, dun do it halfway, do it till the end and give ur best shot]
[When you want to acheive something, make sure u did try ur best, if u realli did try ur best, u hav succeeded, but when u dint, dun make a fuss over it, REFLECT]
[When you want to hav a smooth sail across the ocean, dun carry things that will cause u to sink]
[Before you do something, make sure u think as many times as possible first, to confirm you will be doing the right things]
[Live life to the fullest, make sure u noe ur aims in life to find out the purpose of you living in this world, but not be a parasite to the society]

This is life@

9:27 PM

♥Thursday, October 20, 2005

Aiyaya... exam papers are giving back le.... yesterday gave back ying yong wen and chinese paper 2... today give back zuo wen and A maths paper!! Its kinda okiez... but i noe tomolo will be a disaster... coz... em paper come back first... then chem and physics... how can they place this two subjects together arh.... haiz.. i think i going to cry till siao tomolo lez.... haiz... realli hope i can pass... but hope doesn't seem to be to high... so i dun dare to hav high expectations too... haiz... aniwae... i dun think i m going to do well for both of my e maths paper... if both can get 35 marks each i very very happy liao... at least an A2!! plS goD!!! At least let mi happy first then let mi sad bahz.... haiz....

Hmmmz...... today i try tying up my hair(thanks alicia T. for helping mi to tie hehez) muz learn to tie hair liao orhz.. hahaz... I think my head feels lighter when my hair is tied up hehez... kinda cute orhz the pony tail hehez.... so short sia... hehez=,= I got my xiao zhu's album liao... the money for buying his album is worth spent.... its NICE!!! HIGHLY RECOMMENDED BY ME!! hehez... nice songs inside!!hehez...

Aniwae... hope tomolo will be a better day bahz... JIa you!! That's all for today orhz... abit short la.... but nvm hehez...

[when u noe that crying cannot help you animore, u muz think of another new method of helping yourself but not crying=)]
[if u fall down u muz stand up again urself, if u cannot stand up ask the people beside u to lend a helping hand, i dun think they will reject u bahz]
[who noes if u might nid other ppl's hand in the future, its gd to lend other yours too]

This is life@

7:44 PM

♥Tuesday, October 18, 2005

hmMz.... exams are finalli over... and finalli ppl get to see my new post!! actualli exam finished on the 12/10.... but i drag till now to post a new blog... think i kinda lazy bahz.. juz feel like slacking and relax..... i had co on fri and sat which were yesterday and today.... hmmmz... kinda out of practice..... my solo piece is my biggest worry now sia... haiz.... i think i m going to start practicing soon!! hoho.... yang qin is my life manz!! this is the way!!

hmmmz today went to k-box wif lay, dia and yixin after co..... we stayed there from 2pm to 7:15pm... i realli dun feel like sleeping today manz.... my aunt not in singapore... i can use for how long i want!!! hehez.... happy happy!!

mass revision should be starting on mon... kinda worri btz that too.... taking back results are worst than having to study and taking the exam..... i dun wanna see myself crying over results... but.. sometimes... i realli cannot control myself emotionally... so friends... if u see mi crying over results pls let mi cry for as long as i like... i will be fine after that=) and hmmm elton, u say if u dun accompany mi cry muz treat mi lunch one orhz...(though is try to cry la) hahaz...

mi going to play for the whole night!! the first time.... and the last time bahz... i had made plans for nxt yr already... i m going to cheong my tys during this 2 month holiday!! i promised to make full use of it!! i dun wanna drop my sci... and my geo.. hahaz.. i dun want to be the first one to drop pure geo!! i will try to hang on!! muz help mi jia you k!! hehez....

today is a long day... after k-box... i went to my uncle's hse... to help my pri one cousin tuition.... hmmz.... had my dinner at his hse too!!! i realli can consider being a tuition teacher after o lvl!! better than working in fast-food restuarant hoho!!! lay arh.. dun worri i will be kanna cheated again!! hahaz... i will learn to be smarter de la orhz... hehez
that's all for today bahz... mi going to play liao!! hoho buaiz buaiz!!

[when everything is smooth in life, it seems to be lighter]
[when it is lighter, u will be happier]
[and wat matters most in life is to be happy no matter wat u do=)]
[life is for enjoyment, not suffering]

This is life@

1:15 AM

♥Sunday, October 16, 2005